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I just had to come on and talk to people who understand or maybe don’t maybe it’s just me! I’ve just completely embarrassed myself. I was out running in the park and went past a man who I often see and say good morning to. He asked me “new haircut?” To which I replied “yes long story but I had bc last year” I then said “I really just want it to grow because I feel I stand out” I don’t feel like I stand out I don’t know why I said that but realising that I ’d probably made him feel bad I followed with “all good now though” and then I jogged on. I feel such an idiot, why do I feel the need to tell absolutely everyone I have had bc? He is not the first random person I have told but he is the most embarrassing because I will see him again. I’m sure it was the last thing he wanted to hear out on his morning walk. ☺️
Good for you Kip starting your healthy eating/fitness regime. I am back exercising but am really struggling to eat less. I weigh the most I have done in 2 years but have lost 1lb in the last 7 days so I will persevere. I did laugh at your karate kid reference, I thought the same as soon as you said painting the wall!
Jean I do have another appointment booked with the counsellor next week, I think I will make that my last. Partly because I do feel mentally better than I was but also I see the trainee and I’m just not sure how good he is! I think I’ll do the moving forward course in Feb, although will have to miss a week because of the trek but the next one isn’t until April and I just feel ready for it. Do you keep in contact with any of the ladies you met there? Have you been out walking at all? It’s beautiful here today but a bit fresh! Lists definitely rule! I’m back writing lists too. I find it helps to motivate me to get things done and as both the girls are now back at uni the house is very quiet so I have to keep busy otherwise we know what happens, those worry gremlins creep in! Also I think when you are at home as opposed to work you have to be disciplined to get things done, so lists are a winner here! My favourite list is one I wrote on my phone last year and is nothing to do with housework it is of all the places I want to go on holiday and it feels good to start ticking them off!
CDC how did your appointment go with the surgeon go? The Facebook group you’ve found sounds very useful, it’s always good to hear of other people’s experiences isn’t it? Even though ours may be different it all helps with the preparation. I’m sure it will go well for you as they are so experienced at the Marsden.
Well I’m slightly over my embarrassing outburst of earlier, any advice gladly received perhaps I need to sew a zip on my mouth and padlock it!
Have a good day everyone xx
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Hi everyone...

Good to hear everyone is starting to make inroads into the next stages of this journey, whether training for a trek, preparing for next surgery or making those lists... it all matters...its the next step forward!  I've started a healthy eating plan this week (well yesterday actually)... trying not to listen to the biscuit tin calling me.   I really need to shift this extra weight, can't be helping my achy joints.   I have been using the hopsital exercise DVD doing a couple of sections a day, its really quite good, very gentle and now I have my pilates ball I can do all the exercises.  Its basically just for shoulders, chest and neck, to loosen, stretch and release the tightness, but seems to help.   Some of the exercisees are similar to the ones I was given after surgery, like walking the finger tips up the wall but they have been pushed further by facing the wall with the pilates ball under your outstretched palm and then you roll the ball up so that it moves down your arm and you do this up and also out to the side at an angle and it really gives it another dimesion... sorry not explained very well but seems to help.  Lots of other little exercises to do which only take a few minutes at a time.  I have even managed to hula hoop and do some arm exercises at the same time!   One is called "painting the wall" and reminds me of the film Karate Kid (not sure any of you remember it)... where you extend your arm out in front and basically move it like you are painting up and down, flexing the hands... really helps my tight forearm! 
Feenix you were right I have my lyphomdeam appt on 18th Jan so still another 10 days, will be glad for an expert to take a look and tell we whats what.   Its still sore when I reach forward and I get a funny twanging feeling around my elbow, although I don't this its very swollen.   How are you doing?   Hows the ribs?

I also managed to get the same brand of Tamoxifen this month so will see if that helps sticking to the same one...so far its not too bad, just the aches (not sure if its that though) and hot sweats during the night but am sleeping pretty well I think, well not any worse than before anyway.

Hope everyone is getting back into the swing after xmas.

love

Kip

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Thanks Clare. Sounds like you’ve found a good group to get info and support about Diep. I’m in the Flat friends closed group which I find really supportive, informative and I know Im not alone in my attitude. There was an interesting interview on woman’s hour today about mastectomy although I didn’t catch the beginning. I might have to catch up with it. I do hope you got as much info as you could at your appointment today and feel informed and confident with your team. 

Kip... hope you’re doing ok. You’ve still got a wait for your appointment with lymph nurse if I remember correctly. Hope work is going ok.

Michelle .. hope your training is going ok. How are you doing in general ... just came to mind you were having counselling. If you’ve continued with it I do hope it is helping. Keep on walking, running and anything else you can do to help as well.

Weather has been rubbish today so I’ve been rather lazy, apart from being round the shops.... I’ve done some ironing !!! 😂 .... Lists rule ok. Got myself a diary with a yearly planner and large enough (a5) to write my lists 😊 

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Belated birthday greetings Jean!  I think the lists and daily activities are a really good idea.  It has helped me to have a bit of a routine when I’ve felt low.  I’d love to get in to Tai Chi at some point too,  Sorry you’re side is still sore- I can imagine you must have to be extremely supple for some of the yoga moves on the DVD.  Not sure I could  have attempted some of the positions I’ve heard of even before surgery! 

 

Michelle fantastic you managed 7 miles and so glad you found someone to Chat with,  Its so wonderful that you’re raising money too.  

 

Linda- I spent a day in Cairo on a mini-cruise from Cyprus some years ago and absolutely loved it but we did have to have an armed guard at one point due to issues with security,  Have you had any other ideas of places to go?  I’m going to be looking for inspiration as I also intend. To have an amazing holiday once all the treatment is over.  

 

Kip how are you getting on?  Hope you’ve had a good weekend.

 

I came across a closed group for people on Facebook who have had or are going to have DIEP surgery.  I’m now feeling slightly less nervous having read their experiences. Also feel better informed about what to expect.  Hopefully my apppont,ent with the surgeon tomorrow will also help.

 

Sending best wishes to everyone sxx

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Linda .. my niece has just been to Egypt and loved it. I was there 1990 ... I’d always wanted to go. 

Michelle ..  I use the wii fit yoga as a warm up. My side isn’t 100% yet but the stretching helps... at the same time as making it more sore 😂. We were looking at some yoga dvds my OH got when he did some training in India ... I’d have to be uber flexible to do some of the moves. The follow on team here have various things on offer and there’s weekly yoga which I may consider. Pilates is supposed to be good too. Going to get back to tai chi at some point. My mood has improved but think I’m still on a low level at times hence I’m making to do lists on a daily basis and going to incorporate different activities eg. House stuff, me stuff, creative stuff, OH stuff etc. I may then be more focussed, motivated, productive and balanced. Sometimes I just can’t be bothered and I know it’s a mental thing. Maybe I’m in hibernation mode !! Sounds as though you’re doing good...getting out with your trekking group and doing 7 miles ... well done. Good to be able to chat about both your experiences with the lady trekker.

Kip .. hows the exercise dvd going ?

Clare ... hope your appointment goes ok tomorrow.

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Well done Linda not long now! Egypt sounds exciting, I’ve bever been but would love to see the pyramids!
How is the wii fit going Jean? I’ve never done yoga but keep thinking I should sign up for a class, it is supposed to be great for improving flexibility which I could really do with! I hope the exercising has continued to lift your mood. I googled the wooden rower as I’d never heard of them and you’re right they do look great which solves the usual problem with exercise equipment of where to store it!
CDC good idea having a much deserved break away with your OH. I hope you feel refreshed from it.
We went for a walk this morning with our fellow trekkers. We haven’t met any of them before although coincidently I knew one couple as their daughter and mine were in school together. Generally I think the group are fundraisers rather than people who have been through cancer however I did chat to one lady who confided in me that she’d had BC a year ago. She was quite surprised when I said me too! It was really nice sharing our stories. We walked 7 miles and it wasn’t particularly hilly but I do feel tired now. I really need to work on my stamina but an easy afternoon today I think! I hope everyone is enjoying the weekend xx
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CDC 12 down 8 to go! Not sure where we will go yet. Was thinking of Hurghada Egypt but there was a bomb at the pyramids although not been to the pyramids but did think about going to the pyramids this time. We are thinking about a night away to celebrate the end of treatment first. Am thinking about you!

I mentioned I was thinking about an op in May on my other boob last week at my rad's review and they said to ask re a mammogram in October a year after my op as you have to leave it a while after surgery. I last had a mammogram in March on my good boob so that will be a year and 7 months from diagnosis. The surgeon said he would see me in April which is actually my wedding anniversary to discuss the op for symmetry as am lopsided at the mo.

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Ooh they sound interesting feenix
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Thanks ladies.

Hope that Pilates ball does the trick Kip. Await your feedback.....

Ive been out for a walk this morning ... this afternoon will be wii fit. OH would like a rowing machine ... where to put it though. I’ve seen some wood ones online, which use water for the resistance. A bit expensive but stored upright and look like a contemporary piece of furniture. 

Hope you all have a good day.

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Feenix

 

Belated happy birthday wishes for yesterday

 

 

Helena xxx

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Yes hope you had a wonderful birthday Feenix 🎂. Glad to read you are getting the list writing going again... And starting to feel less tired and getting the ribs sorted. I have a small pilates ball coming today as lots of the exercises on my dvd use one to assist with movement... Watch this space I'll report on its helpfullness
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Happy Birthday for yesterday Jean! 🎉🍰 Sending a big birthday hug and birthday wishes for a healthy future xx
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Hi Ladies

Kip ... being back to a work routine must be satisfying. I’ve yet to get a diary for this year but still have last years planner ... it certainly tells a story. Hope you’re ploughing your way through the chocolate at a steady pace. Your exercise dvd sounds really good and I hope you get back to swimming...I just keep on thinking about it.  I’ve got some exercise bands but haven’t used them much although physio said they would be good for stretching. I may try a 5 week exercise prog through nhs site .. picked it up looking through Becca app. It’s on the same site as the couch to 5k. I’ll have to wait until my ribs are pain free and by that time I’ll probably have forgotten all about it 😂 . Hope your chemo se’s keep on improving... Michelle and Clare also. 

 

Clare ... I was super anxious before my last op but more about decision making. I really didn’t want a mx as I’d got used to my ever shrinking boob, and it was ‘another surgery’.   It’s natural to be anxious before major surgery, or any surgery. It’s the mental preparation, knowing there’s going to be a ‘change’ which will need to be embraced and a recovery period to get through. Although the length of your surgery must be daunting there are so many women who have gone through Diep and been ok .. that is so positive... keep that in mind. Your team will be very experienced doing Diep’s... they will reassure you on Monday and answer your questions. How are your pre op preparations going?  Sounds good to have a couple of days away with your OH. 

 

Michelle ...  my goodness .. next month is your trek !! I have to take my hat off to you...I can only get up to walking pace. Mind you I’ve never been a runner. And you’ve signed up for more !!! They’ll keep you going. Keep on believing your own hype but take it easy if/when you have an off day ... go with the flow. My birthday was yesterday..chill out day. I never feel I have to do ‘anything or something’ and there’s so many other days in the year to chose from...warmer days 😂 Today is the day to start off on the right foot for me... definitely into lists again and will get a 2019 diary/ planner tomorrow. Gosh...I was doing that this time last year and it all went out of the window .. hey ho. Hope you get some good 💤

 

Jane .. pleased you are doing so good.... getting near to ringing that bell 🔔 🔔 🔔 

 

 

Ive felt very tired and grumpy the past few days. Decided to take myself in hand .... started doing half hour wii fit today .. the yoga part was good for stretching.. and I have had a walk. My ribs are twanging but I need to keep on going. My mood has improved today probably because I don’t feel so cream crackered and I haven’t nodded off ... results. Hoping I can keep motivated.

Deciding whether to do long haul flight this month or next ... 🤔 

I was told having an Epsom salt soak is good for crampy legs !?

Its been really chilly today. Hoping it’s going to be a bit ‘warmer’ tomorrow.

xx

 

 

 

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You both talking about neuropathy has made me think, yesterday my feet were really sore to walk on. I had been for a run but only a short one. I’ve been lucky I haven’t had many chemo related SE’s but do have a bit of neuropathy in my feet. Do you know if it is aggravated by exercise or helped? I know exercise helps most things but I’m wondering if the pounding of running might make it worse? I really hope not, I’m loving being back running. I guess I’ll have to just see how it goes. Chemo really is the gift that keep on giving! X
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CDC - thats really interesting because I find if I haven't done too much walking my legs, feet and knees don't suffer at nighttimes as much.. but otherwise they are so restless and achey, my feet sometimes feel like I've walked 40,0000 steps and I haven't done a single one.. perhaps it is neuropathy from the chemo... whatever it is I hope it slings its hook soon!!  

Kip

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Kip I get the restless feeling in my feet some nights- it’s definitely neuropathy related in my case. I’ve been referred to the pain specialist at the Marsden so it will be interesting to hear any suggestions. I find if I keep off my feet for a couple of days then I can walk pretty normally for the next day or two . I think I’m just going to have to plan my days carefully if I know there will be a lot of walking involved. Still hoping that over time the sensation will comeback properly.

Janie, I’m glad your transition back to work is going well. Only a few more days and you’ll have finished your rads! Great news.

Michelle it’s brilliant you’re getting on with your training. Thanks for your reassuring words with regards to surgery. I'm feeling somewhat calmer today and talking to the surgeon on Monday should also help.

Hi Linda not too long to go now. Hope you’re enjoying planning a holiday. Any ideas where you’d like to go!

How are you doing Jean? Have you managed any more walks? It’s a glorious day here and I managed a little walk around the grounds of the hotel where my OH and I spent the last 2 nights.

Hugs to everyone xxx
Kip
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Yes tick of the days Jane, soon be ringing loud and proud!

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Hi  Michelle and Kip

Thank you for your good wishes. Tenth radiotherapy today so two thirds done! I am counting down the days to that bell!

Jane xxx

Kip
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Wow Jane.. thats great that the nurse will come to your work for you... wonderful!   Glad to hear you are fairing well too, its good to be back at work isn't it.  After I finished my Rads (19th Dec) I haven't really found I have been too tired, not got sore either although I do have a couple of red patches but they don't hurt.

Michelle - glad the Tamoxifen is suiting you fairly well.  Those sweats are awful though aren't they.  I'm not convinced its the Tamox only causing my aches as it seems to be a SE of the docetaxol chemo for some people too.  Perhaps its a bit of both.  Last night I had restless right leg all night long and achy feet.. perhaps its some sort of neuropathy thing.. who knows.. just hope it passes.  I have been looking up swimming timetables to see if I can get myself motivated to go swimming, thinkign I need to stretch all these muscles.  After my work out yesterday with the DVD I am a bit stiff today, so still stretching.

Kip

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Your DVD sounds good Kip, I think I have quite good movement and flexibility inmy arm until I stretch it above my head, it really feels quite stiff then. I should make more of an effort to stretch it.
I seem fine on Tamoxifen too, no aches just lots of hot flushes.
Jane it sounds like you are doing well, I’m impressed your nurse will come to your work to give your herceptin, that must be really handy for you sonyou can keep working. I hope the remainder of your rads go well.
Mum and dad went home today, lovely to see them but good to have our home back! Hoping to get back in to a routine at last xx
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Hi Feenix,

I am doing well, thank you! I have just had nine of my fifteen radiotherapy sessions. No ill effects still. I had tried to bring it forward as I wanted to be finished by the time I went back to work today. However, it was not too bad having the sessions over the Christmas period. We had the children home from Uni and family down, so I had plenty of offers of lifts, and we combined it with a nice coffee after!

Work was so good today. I was absolutely thrilled to get back to it. I have been off from 26th June. I am doing mornings only til the radiotherapy has finished ( 10th January)The radiotherapy nurse told me the tiredness may kick in about nine days after my last radiotherapy. I hope not! I am away for a friend's 50th, then the following week I will be back to work full-time.

I will be having three weekly Herceptin injections til June but they are happy to come into work to do that, then sit in the waiting room for two hours to make sure there are no side effects. ( I am a dentist).

Best wishes to all of you

Jane xx

 

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Morning all, well back at the desk and getting on with work.   Funny how you soon get back into the stride.

CDC - I can well imagine the worries are creeping in for your operation but you'll get there and this is the final piece of the jigsaw and you can heal up and move forward knowing you've done all you can.  Good to hear you have the weight gain for you operation too, I have plenty around my hips, tummy, bottom well everywhere really and am going to try to take that into control now the new year is here... although I still have a shed load of chocolate to get through too.

Fab you are getting on well with Tamoxifen too, just the knees.  It will be intersting to see if it improves when you are off them for a couple of weeks.. let me know.  My stiff limbs are still a nuisance but slightly less so now, just the lower back which aches (see below for possible reason though) and I get the sweating during the night.

I finally got to watch and participate in the Breast Exercise DVD given to me by my hospital.  Its really quite good, it was made by Ipswich Hospital Macmillan unit and is aimed at getting movement and flexibiiity back.   I did most of it today, its very slow to begin with and you build up as you go but had some great exercises that really feel like they will get my arms and shoulders moving.  Made me realise that my hip and back pain is probably down to posture as they point out that once you have had breast surgery you naturally arch forward to protect that area and you shoulders dip and hunch causing stiffness.  I need to work on the video and to buy a small pilates ball as some exercises use those.  SOme use the resistance bands and that seems like a good thing too.  

Michelle - I like your thinking that if you say your fine enough you may just believe it.. Im trying that too, not always successfully and I too spend times awake with wandering mind.  I would love a whole nights sleep for once, but hot sweats and aches don't allow that any more.  But mustn't moan as on the whole I sleep ok.

Kip

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I was also diagnosed in March, what a horrible time that was. I still find it difficult to think back to, the feelings are still very raw. However this is a new year, onwards and upwards with lots of up hopefully!
Writing diaries, calendars and planning ahead things we really want to do seems to be a theme. The saying dont’t put off till tomorrow what you can do today really chimes with me now! Just do it! I’ve set myself a few challenges for next year, you already know of the trek I’m doing in February but I have also signed up to 4 10k’s and 2 half marathons! Training started yesterday with a beautiful 5k along the seafront. I’ve also put on lbs so hopefully getting back to running will help with that aswell as giving me the feel good factor.
Claire I was terrified before my surgery but I think the apprehension is worse than the reality. Sending lots of positive vibes to you, after surgery you are closer to the end of this horrible process.
Thanks for your kind words Jean. We did have a good time for my mums birthday, are you a Capricorn too? When is your birthday and do you have something nice planned?
I know my mum will go home feeling like she has her daughter back and I am definitely in a much better place now however I do feel I have made a decision to project that I am back to ‘normal’ when in reality there are still so many worries. Perhaps if I carry on like this I will believe my own hype!! 😂
I used to be such a great sleeper but now find if I am often lying awake in the early hours. Not always worrying but just going over stuff in my head.
Kip good luck with work, I think getting back into some sort of routine can do wonders.
Have a good day all xx

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Jean I hope you’re not feeling as sore. Good you got out for a walk but definitely agree going with the flow is the right way to approach things. I was so down a couple of days ago but realised it was my body’s way of saying ‘’enough’s enough. You need to rest’. It’s been lovely catching up with my family over Christmas but it’s akso been exhausting. Not sleeping properly either which doesn’t help. On a positive note, apart from my dodgy knees and some hot flushes, I seem to be doing ok on the tamoxifen. I will be interested to see if the joint pain lessens over the next couple of weeks as I have to stop taking it before my op.

Take care everyone. Sending hugs to you all 🤗🤗🤗xxx
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Hello all you lovely ladies and here is hoping to many, many more ups this year. It was March last year when I had my fateful shower and felt the thickening which heralded the start of a tumultuous year. I’m sorry I’ve been a bit quiet but been struggling with my emotions. I didn’t feel nervous before my last two ops but there is just something so final about a mastectomy- However, you all give me hope and in many ways ‘final’ is good. Hopefully I’ll feel more relaxed knowing I’ve ensured my chances of getting BC again are minimal. Thank you so much for your honesty and openness in sharing your experiences.

Linda, so good to hear you’ll hopefully be finishing treatment very soon. Fingers crossed you’ll soon be holidaying in the sun! We all deserve a b***dy good holiday this year!!

Kip hope your return to work goes smoothly. You’ll have to share any weight loss tips- I’ve put on a stone over the holidays so my plastic surgeon will be happy I definitely have enough tummy for two reconstructions now!!!! Only trouble the weight has also gone too my hips. I’ll be a complete pear by the end of treatment. 🍐
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Just put up the new calendar and had a flick back through the 2018 one.... Full of horrendous reminders... Especially the one back in March... I'd marked it as `shopping' so that the children didn't know anything.. Seems a different lifetime and I guess it was... Oh well no looking backwards got to look to the futures.
Back to work tomorrow and time to shed this weight... Still go a shed load of chocolate though 😒
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Pleased you’re getting to the end of your hospital treatment Linda. I started out in March also. Have found the support to be exceptional. Enjoy your break away in the sun ...all the best for 2019.

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I second the rollercoaster year. Good riddens. Thanks to all for helping me through from March until now. Hopefully my treatment will end on 16th January. I am hoping to go away to get some sun soon. Happy new year.xx

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Kip ... I’ve got everything crossed for more ups. 

Jane ...  how are you doing? I think you’re having radiotherapy?  2018 was certainly a rollercoaster, physically as well as psychologically. Wishing you all the best for 2019.

 

I put my good foot forward this morning and got out for a walk ... I know I need to do more, help my endorphins and increase my feel good factor. I’m making a list already, looking at things I need to do, things I’d like to do/try but nothing is ‘resolute’ as I know being flexible is the key ... go with the flow. 

 

I think about the ladies who are just being diagnosed, having to make difficult decisions, going through treatment and know that there is always support on here.

 

hugs xx

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Happy New Year, Kip, and all you lovely ladies. You have shared my highs, when I have had good path reports, and my lows, like my trauma over my mastectomy, and have got me through this. I have never met any of you, but our shared experiences make me feel like you are friends! I wish you all well. Jane xx

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Hi all, just wanted to wish you all a Happy New Year!!  Heres to a muxh better 2019 for us all.  I would also like to say a big thanks to uou all foe being there feom the early dsys, through surgery, chemo and every up and down... You are all truly amazing...  

Fingers crossed for more ups than downs this year

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Hi Michelle ... pleased to hear your break away has been beneficial. You’re right about thoughts though ... you take them with you wherever you may go but distractions, being in a new place, are good. Superstitions, prayers etc can give comfort, reassurance and hope. I’m always saying ‘touch wood’ and ‘crossing fingers’. Throwing coins, ringing bells ... well, you just have to do such things. It’s definitely a must when on your jollies.

Hope the last of your chemo nails can be trimmed off soon. My friend reminded me that fatigue can be around for some time post hospital treatments ... and you are having Herceptin as well. Steady away Michelle, plan out your day, make a list ... and when you’re tired you just have to down tools and take it easy. Let someone else ‘take the load’ or just say ‘to heck with it’. Enjoy your time with your parents. Happy Birthday to your mam ... another Capricorn ♑️ 

I do hope you get back into your running and it helps.

 

Ladies,

You’ve all been so supportive ... listening , advising, sharing ...... very much appreciated.

All the Very Best for 2019. 🎇   Fingers crossed for a good year 🌈 

 

 

 

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Hi Jean, Claire and Kip

Nice to hear you all enjoyed Christmas. I haven’t sent the wizard of Oz for years, such a classic! Sorry you are still feeling stiff in parts Jean but it sounds like you are gradually on the mend. Walking will help I’m sure but take it easy.

I’ve been lucky enough not to lose any nails but they aren’t in great shape. I’ve kept them short since chemo but they keep snagging on things and splitting. They used to be very strong. On the plus side I think the last of the chemo nail is at the top now (it’s only taken 5 months!) so hopefully they will start to improve.

Claire I Hope you have enjoyed your Christmas and haven’t beeen thinking too much about your surgery.

We got back from Slovenia a couple of days ago, it was fantastic, so beautiful and a great distraction. It stopped me thinking about previous christmases and this year to an extent but I have realised there is no real mental escape from all of this, it sits at the back of my mind casting a small shadow on things. I have noticed I am more open to superstitions/beliefs and not my usual cynical self. On holiday I have rang a wishing bell, thrown a coin in a lake and made a wish, sat in churches saying little prayers and seen ‘signs’ in things I wouldn’t normally have paid any attention to. Maybe this is what’s meant by ‘a new me after cancer.’

Physically I think the herceptin is starting to take it’s toll, I am more breathless than usual. I’m hoping that young my running in Jan will strengthen it. Also I am more tired than my usual me. Holidays can be tiring I know but I feel like I have to pick either have a busy day or go out in the evening, I struggle with both. I’m not falling asleep all of the time but just find I can’t be bothered to do stuff. Which will be interesting as I have my mum and dad coming to stay today for a few days. In my head I am my normal ‘rushing around’ self but then it comes to it and I flag! It’s my mums birthday today so we are going out for lunch when they arrive.
Happy New Year to you all and thank you for being such a great support xx
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Morning.

Turkey is very versatile Kip. Wizard of Oz is a classic ... it’s some time since I watched it.

I didn’t go into the main shopping centre yesterday but planning to this morning. My intention was to be out by 9 but I’m still in the pit, with a cuppa !!! It was quieter out and about yesterday than the weekend. Out for a walk yesterday and actually picked up a bit of speed. I’ve definitely gone a bit backwards in terms of stamina as I was fair cream crackered afterwards ... started to nod off when I got back and sat down and even OH said I looked really tired. So, canny on the mental side of things but physically rubbish. Ive so got to be more active. My chest area/side is still sore but in general I’m still improving....it hurts just in certain positions and I still can’t put pressure on certain areas when massaging along scar. I started some cording massage last night ...just had to grit my teeth when lying flatter.... but I think lying down on my back, with a couple of pillows though, helped ‘stretch me out’ which is good.

Clare...  just thinking it’s a little over 2 weeks until your surgery. I know you will be prepared, in the practical sense, for your recovery period. Have you got your post op bra and support pants yet ... will pick something up in the sales if you can stand to get out into the crowds although footfall around the shops is supposed to be less this year. 

Michelle ... hope the week has been really super and just what you needed. We have yet to book our flights. I certainly need to be a bit more comfortable in the rib/chest area before getting on a long haul flight. Just remembered I’ve not sorted insurance out either and I need some Deet.

Sally ... how are you doing? I expect you’ve had your radiotherapy planning appointment and getting ready to start in the New Year.  Have you seen any improvement in your hair fall? I hope you had a good Christmas.

 

Ive really got to get up 😂 

have a good day ladies

xx

 

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Enjoy the shops Feenix!  Just watxhed Wizard of Oz...an oldie but a goodie.. reminded me of watching it with my dad and hiding behind the sofa afraid of the witches' monkeys!

Turkey soup made, turkey curry for tea ..🤤

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Pleased you had a lovely Christmas. Those leaky eyes will spring to life now and then I’m sure but good you managed to put your demons to rest for some time during the festiveness. Hope your aches abate some more and get kicked into touch although you may get them now and then being on the old hormone treatment. I’ve got old legs for real 😂 Pleased your fingers aren’t painful...a bonus !!! Don’t envy you the night sweats. Enjoy your day. I’m off out to the shops soon...well, as soon as OH gets ready!!!

Jean xx

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Morning everyone, well thats Christmas been and gone already.  Hope you all had a lovely break.  i had a lovely time, even managed to put the old demons away at times although had a few tears tn Christmas Eve,. Just the usual old worries.  I still have my aches and pains although not so bad, just a muscle ache in buttock and the usual old lady legs.. having mega hot sweats at night though.  And for good measure i lost 3 finger nails Christmas morning (thankfully not whilst cooking).  The dead white end halves just snapped clean away but there is nail underneath and they dont hurt so not all bad.

OH back at work today so im having a chilled day with the children, if and when they decide to surface.

Love Kip

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Hope you’ve all had a good Christmas, here and away.

Relatively quiet when out and about today....girding myself for a proper look around the shops tomorrow.

Feeling ok... yay

Definitely got to exercise more due to having seasonal treats 😂 

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Michelle

 

Great to hear that you did manage to get away.

 

Have a wonderful Christmas and all very best wishes for a happy and healthy 2019 xxxx

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Hi everyone

Great you managed to get away Michelle. Slovenia sounds very atmospheric. Enjoy!

Jean, you have been there for all of us right from the start! You are a wonderful support. Your wisdom, amd honesty is greatly appreciated. I’m sorry youve been feeling low but I agree with Michelle. It’s understandable after a fall. I hope you continue feeling more yourself. Having said that you know you can ‘say it how it is on here’ without judgement. Sending warmest wishes and gentle hugs.

Kip sorry you’ve got a bit of a wait for your cording appointment. Hope you have a very special Christmas with lots of treats.

My neuropathy and aching knees are still problematic but I’ve had a lovely Christmas Eve with my OH and daughter, exploring a Festive Covent Garden then visiting Charles Dickens’ house where we watched some extracts from a Christmas Carol. Good fun! My daughter is still a ‘believer’ (Just - she did ask me why there was a sign saying ‘stocking fillers’ in the supermarket if Father Christmas is the one who fills the stockings! My OH just said that F.C.has to get the things from someWhere!) so we’re off to put out a mince pie and drink for him and a carrot or two for Rudolph.

Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy the Festivities.

With love and thanks to all of you for your friendship and support.

Clare xxx
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Michelle ... enjoy your tranquil sounding break. It’ll be good to be away from the mad bustle over here..especially when there’s turkey rage happening in supermarkets the length and breadth of the land 😂 

Thanks .. I’m going with the flow, telling myself to ‘get a grip’ (there are those worse off than me kinda mode) and tweaking my thyroxine .... and I’m feeling a tad more myself. 

 

Wishing you all Peace and Happiness this Christmas 🎄🎄🎄

 

Hugs xxx

 

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Jean it is no wonder you feel off kilter at the moment, I think a fall can do that to you anyway, plus the different feelings that can accompany Christmas and then factor in the emotional rollercoaster that is a BC diagnosis and it really is no surprise. I’ve noticed you can be quite hard on yourself, you are obviously a strong woman who will come through all of this I have no doubt. I hope you feel more yourself soon.

Glad you are feeling a bit brighter Kip, I hope you enjoy Christmas with your family.

Well It was a bit touch and go with the traffic on the M25 but we made it to Gatwick and no drones so arrived last night in Slovenia. It is beautiful and lovely to be somewhere completely different without the usual Christmas associations. I seemed to have started believing in anything and everything nowadays, I am off for a swim in thermal water in a min. Apparently the minerals are good for you and will be getting a boat over to a church where you can ring the bell and make a wish. I will be thinking of us all when I make that wish.
I hope everyone here is able to enjoy the next few days and that we can all look forward to a happy healthy 2019. Big love and hugs to everyone xx
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Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas...  May it be SE free and full of peace and relaxation!

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Michelle ... pleased the emotions are stabilising somewhat. Mine have destabilised a bit, more so since I twanged my chest falling and feel I’ve taken a step backwards when I was doing so well. It’s made me feel angry, and hypersensitive, at times ... I would have just bounced back pre bc but of course I’ve a bit of a surgical area across the old chest now 😨... hey ho.... I am much better though. Have to be a bit careful laughing still. Pleased you got your lump seen and put your mind at rest. We have to get used to the new us when self examining, and of course we are always changing. Being able to access the Breast clinic service anytime is a good thing and definitely reassuring.

I do hope you made it away from Gatwick on time...enjoy your holiday. 

Kip ... hope you continue to feel ‘ok’ . It’s great not having any appointments over Christmas . We went to a Wassailing last night and there was a moment I felt the leaky eyes kicking off but luckily I controlled it ... and I enjoyed the evening 😊 I’m definitely more emotional lately, a bit off kilter, but hoping I’ll get a bit more balance once Christmas is over... get into next year. You’ve definitely got a wait for your cording appointment. I hope it keeps on improving til then. OH does my cording massage a lot as he can put more pressure on but I can’t comfortably lie down and extend my arm back just yet so I’m doing it when Im upright doing stretches. 

Been out round the shops this morning ... lots of folks food shopping but I expect tomorrow will be even busier.

hugs xx

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Happy holidays Michelle hope you get away on time!  Its good to know im not alone with how i feel too.  Im feeling a bit brighter today i think.  Just going to enjoy Christmas appointment free!  Got an appt for lymphodema clinic forr 18th jan so bit of a wait to get cording sorted but it ok.

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Hello everyone, I’ve just been catching up with everyone’s news.
Glad you are feeling better after you fall Jean, keep up the stretching and hopefully you’ll be hooping again soon!
CDC I’m pleased to hear you are receiving a better service at the Marsden and that the staff are generally more caring. It’s certainly what is needed in these times. I bet you are pleased to have a date for the op even though you are bound to be apprehensive at least you know what the plan is and you trust your team. That really is surprising the number of women who’s tumours aren’t picked up on mammograms. No one has ever mentioned I have dense tissue so presumably I don’t? It makes me worry about picking up any recurrence. Yours and Kips trial sound interesting, and a real positive being monitored for longer. Obviously SE’s are a consideration although the aspirin trial SE sound quit minimal Kip from what you say. I read a bit on the research and it is ER+ HER- so probably not much benefit to me as low ER+ and HER+.
I find it strange reading some of the things you have written Kip as they are thoughts and feelings that I have also had. I guess we might feel like we are on our own with our feelings but actually are going through very similar emotions. I am 5 weeks post rads now and much more emotionally stable ie crying a lot less! Than I was at weeks 1-3 post rads. I have had 2 counselling sessions now but the second one was a bit of a waste of time as it was just with the trainee and I just don’t think he ‘gets it’ like his more experienced supervisor.
Tamoxifen on the new brand seems to be going ok, but I am going to try and stick with one of the two I have been given so far. Fortunately I’m not suffering with the aches like you are Kip, I hope they ease off for you soon.
I had a bit of a worry the other night when I felt a lump. Fortunately the following day I was at the hospital anyway. They were very good and squeezed me in although I had to wait a while. They said they take everything seriously and I shouldn’t ever hesitate about seeing them which I found very comforting. Anyway the lump it seems is scar tissue thankfully but she said if it has changed at all when I see my onc in January they will US me so I feel ok about it. The nurse also explained it can take quite a while to feel better after rads, my breast has been very tender and bruised feeling.
Well that’s all my news except we are going on holiday on Sunday and guess where we are flying from?! Oh yes Gatwick, so fingers crossed we get there. That would just about top off this year! X
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Hi CDC, the Add Aspirin trial sounds like something I would like to do.   I have to read up a bit first, but you get given a low dose of Aspirin for about 8 weeks to see if you are compatible with it and have no problems, if thats ok then you get randomised for either 100mg 200mg or placebo.   You have to have 12 extra appointmnents at the hospital over the next 5 years I think, they like to monitor urine, bloods and if it is stored, a piece of the original tumour.   They have done some research by using a group of over 70 year olds and monitored them but they were not previoius cancer patients so they are now looking to see how the effects of aspirin could reduce the possible reoccurrence or delay it so they need hormone positive breast, bowel, prostrate and oesophagus patients.   The listed side effects are those of taking aspiring, so bruising, blood thinning, indigestion.. so not too many.  I will do some more research and let you know what I find.

 

After the exuberance of finishing active treatment on Wednesday its been a funny old time.  Not sure how to feel.   Had a quite restless night with the achey hips and back and kept worrying about bones... made the mistake of googling yesterday... never good and I should know by now not to.  Its hard when everyone around me is saying "oh you must be so pleased its over with".. and inside I'm thinking.... its never over with though.  Just hope time will make it easier.. that and some relief from these aches and pains.  How are you knees now CDC? Enjoy those biscuits, chocs and tunnocks... musn't let that tummy go to waste!

 

Feenix - glad you are feeling a bit better now and getting the exercises going agaiin.

Kip

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CDC glad you have got everything planned now for your op. I think you are very brave! Have a fab xmas. I am on day 5 of 20 rads sessions. I hope you are not offended by my messages but was just trying to help. Love Linda xx
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Clare, pleased you’re on the home stretch, have your surgery date and know what you’re having done. And you have to make decisions on going on the trial...always something..yikes. Enjoy the tunnocks and biscuits 😊 

Kip ... see you have been asked to participate in a trial too 🤔 Hope you’re feeling somewhat better this evening. It’s an odd feeling at first after finishing hospital treatment but it does get better. Hope you can keep those gremlin thoughts at bay.

I saw my bcn today and she mentioned the Hope course so I might sign up for that too. I’ve got open access through the follow up team/breast unit, can access other support if needed, talking therapies,yoga etc and will have a yearly mammogram.

Im improving after my dive out of the car last week. Finding para/brufen help me get through exercises/stretching. 

Have a good night

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Meant to say my plastic surgeon said I should just enjoy Christmas and gave me Carte Blanche to eat whatever I like! Pass me the tunnocks and the biscuit tin! My tummy is currently perfect for surgery so I don’t want to lose any weight from it. Shame I won’t be losing the flabby thighs! Xx