19-05-2018 05:47 AM
So glad you are progressing well Kip, keep it up!
May I ask if being emotional is common after surgery? As someone who very rarely cries, I feel I am a jibbering idiot every time I think about the bolshy surgeon who made my life hell ... Several times I woke in the night to see his face inches from mine as he continuously repeated (at least 7 times) the same statement that I was not the only patient in the hospital. My response was the same each time, that I appreciated that & realise that emergencies occur but I did expect what I was told would happen, would happen most of the time, but before I could say more he interrupted with another rant, all the time with his face right in front of me. I felt so threatened I just wanted to walk... He had told me 1. I would be first on the list so I could get home to my husband 2. That he & the MDT had decided the best course of treatment & implied I had the audacity to challenge that & 3. That his colleague would be operating. Now, at 08.45am the plan was to try to do me in the afternoon & that he would be operating. As he made me feel so threatened there was no way I could accept that I decided to decline the surgery. Bolshy said they would have a meeting & left. When he returned he said they could fit me in for morning surgery & as I had said I did not want him operating, his colleague would do it. “Yes, thanks for that!” he added. His colleague looked embarrassed, the nurse & my friend looked stunned.
Everybody else had been so kind & supportive I could not & still can’t understand why he disliked me so much. All the way to theatre I kept thinking, what if he changes his mind again & decides to lead the surgery?
It was a nightmare that keeps repeating in my head.
I did get home that evening but was last to leave the ward as I felt very shaky & vulnerable, but I don’t think that was the surgery, because it still keeps sweeping over me, I think it is caused my my crazy emotions.
My apologies for ranting to you lovely people, this is where I feel safest to express myself right now, so thank you so much for being here. I hope some of this makes sense!
18-05-2018 04:30 PM
Well done Bridget you did it! Glad you're home too and not feeling too bad? I had a better night's sleep, 7 solid hours so feeling better today. Went on trip to Tesco today although I stayed in the car but was good to get out. Found it really helps to walk around, I find my back gets stiff otherwise. Still got my drain but hopefully out tomorrow, but scared of that,but taking heart from the others who said it was ok. Have a good rest ladies XX
18-05-2018 07:18 AM
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17-05-2018 05:53 PM
Thanks for the sleep tips... Watch this space! My district nurse said I could remove the stockings today as I was up and about thank goodness that wasn't a good look! One boob, white stockings and a drain whatever next!!!!
17-05-2018 05:47 PM
17-05-2018 05:35 PM
Hi ktk thanks for the sensible advice. Sorry you had a bad day after such a good week. I think I’ve learnt my lesson and tried to pace myself better today. I did end up feeling bored and did some light laundry and later took a short walk to collect my daughter from her after school choir. I felt like that was enough of an achievement for the day! I’ve started getting itchy. Not sure how I’m going to tolerate another week with these dressings. Really want to take them all off and scratch! Oh well - I’m having to exert Great self-control!!
17-05-2018 05:33 PM
Hi, well day 1 going ok, can lift arm to shoulder height although quite numbat the back of shoulder. Am wearing my softie prothesis today and looks pretty good. KTk .I will get outside tomorrow hopefully getting drain out and can go for little walk. Here's to a restful sleep for all tonight.
17-05-2018 08:47 AM
17-05-2018 08:21 AM
Hi everyone, well after being so tired last night wen5 to bed earlier and couldn’t sleep at all, no pain just wide awake and fed up laying on my back, finallly got up and read at 2am,! Oh well can sleep today. Does anyon3 know how long u keep these stockings on for as I forgot to ask ? I think I lay awake worrying ove4 th3 results and wondering why they took 3 nodes instead of just snb one, even tho bcn said not to read anything into it as they were just close by. Mustn’t panic and jump to conclusions I guess, bloody worry gremlins
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16-05-2018 06:43 PM
Wow! That is absolutely amazing Kip. So glad surgery went well and you got to go home. I’ve also found the arm exercises very helpful. I have a much bigger range of movements six days on from my surgery and I think it’s because I’ve been doing them religiously. BUT do take it easy. After resting up for the past few days I felt really good yesterday morning and I went out to do my usual volunteering and think I must have overdone it. Felt really groggy by the afternoon and pretty grim this morning. I ended up needing a check up at the hospital today because I was light headed and my pulse was racing at 134bpm! Thankfully it came down after resting. I was also checked for a wound infection but all looks ok. The nurse just put on extra dressing. I think I was worried other people seemed to be making better progress in their recovery than me but as my nurse said everyone is different. Each body has to heal itself in its own time.
Look after yourself or even better get everyone else to look after you! Sending gentle hugs and good wishes. Xx
16-05-2018 05:23 PM
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