23-09-2018 10:50 PM
23-09-2018 11:42 AM
Just come across this thread, using this site as need advice regarding reconstruction. I know how you all felt about feeling like a fraud. Apart from an itchy boob there I was healthy and happily working with no aches and pains or cares in the world. Now I am bald and boobless!! Six months of chemo, double mastectomy, 10/10 cancerous lymph nodes removed, internal bleeding emergency surgery and blood transfusion etc etc... but I look so well! Everyone who sees me tells me so, its like I cant be poorly. It has wiped me out and I do feel guilty about work, only doing a few hours three days a week (at the moment not working as recovering from mastectomy). Got radiotherapy to come, a years supply of Herceptin in local chemo unit and then ten years of tablets.... along with a reconstruction if I choose to go ahead. Like a lot of ladies, Ive not been able to cry just got on with battling it, besides my husband has cried buckets for me! Ive had to laugh though, before the hospital got hold of me I was a healthy thing now am so different. We just dont know whats around the corner do we. Live each day to the fullest thats what I say. Hugs to all you out there. X
21-09-2018 06:47 PM
21-09-2018 09:26 AM
Just popped into say hello - we are on holiday in the south of France at the moment but I wanted to see how you all were.
Jude, I’m so glad you had a great day at the races and you looked absolutely gorgeous in the photo! Beautiful lady in your stunning outfit. I can imagine that you felt tired afterwards and hope that you had a relaxing weekend to make up for it.
Jem, well done you for all this walking! It is very therapeutic and good for you physically too. I think you’ll find it gets easier. I realise now that I can’t walk quite a long way without feeling tired now - the old body is getting there!!! You hang on in there and continue to improve.
Glad your rads are finished Yorkshire Tyke, Elaine. Hope you’re feeling well too.
Take care all of you and I’m sending love and hugs from France.
Love Rosie xxx
17-09-2018 07:49 PM
17-09-2018 09:03 AM
I'm so happy you had such a fun day out, and the mental image of you sat in full war paint and no wig did make me giggle!
To be honest it felt like an anti climax when I finished the rads. My life is basically back to normal now. Although I applied for an got a new job in the midst of all the chaos!
The redness and itchy skin peeked on Friday and has now started to settle down, whilst my sun tanned armpit looks to be honest bruised but is in no way painful!
You will have an appointment with the nurse to check your skin on the day of your last appointment (and if you have any problems just tell them and the will refer you to the out patients ward if necessary - that how I got to the bottom of my infection) and another one 6 weeks later. Mine is with my breast cancer nurse back in Harrogate.
I suspect that, that is when I will find out how often I have to go to clinic for a check-up. I know the mammogram will be annual but I'm not so sure about the medication reviews.
I hope you had a restful weekend
15-09-2018 11:47 AM
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14-09-2018 08:23 PM
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14-09-2018 09:51 AM
Jude I hope you feel a bit better today and make it to the races! I've been reading your blogs and they've made me laugh and shed a tear. I read the blog about the wig fitting whilst at the hair dressers. If I'd gone down the chemo route that would have been the day of the chop but instead it was the normal application of dye to hide the white roots! Besides I doubt very much that they make wigs to fit my natural hair style which is less chic bob and more long haired, slightly dishevelled poodle!
My radiotheraphy completed last Thursday. It was both a relief and an anti-climax. So far my skin has gone a bit red (you would have to be up close and personal to see it) and feels mildly itchy. I'm still drinking loads of water (about 2 litres per day) and applying moisturiser (Avene - RosePosie recommended and Aveeno - which is on offer in Waitrose). I had a bit of a rough day on Sunday (that could have been the red wine!) but otherwise I've felt fine and the rest of my skin looks much better thanks to all the water!
My appointments pretty much ran to time but I'd recommend that you give yourself some time to find a slot in the hospital multi-story. You will find one, it's just very busy with cars coming and going so you often have to wait to go up to the next floor or for someone to park. You don't have to pay and you exit via Floor A0. Just walk across to the main entrance then on to the "Green Lifts" and down to -A2. The opposite set of doors to the one you entered through will open and the toilets are on the right and reception to check in for your appointment on the left. When you go round to the waiting area to the machine you've been allocated there are more toilets. If you drink the amount of water I did you'll need them!
Radiotheraphy itself is just like having an xray. The majority of the time is spent lining you up with the marks to make sure they get the best coverage they can. My skin felt a bit warm afterwards but I was never in any pain.
Once again enjoy the races Jude!
12-09-2018 08:58 PM
12-09-2018 03:08 PM
I hope by now you are feeling a bit better and not so nauseous and that you slept ok too.
Hope you’re taking it easy again today - feet up , good book.
Just read your blog - I loved it, and to think you were thinking of not writing this time!!
I’m so pleased you are making plans to go to the races soon, I’m sure your lovely friends will look after you!
Sounds like you’re going to be prepared with the meds too.😉 You’ll have a great time.
Everything you said about Rachael Bland rang true! I listened to the podcast yesterday ‘About our Rachael’ and it was very sad but also, I felt uplifted by it, talking about the big c in such an informative but realistic way. It’s gotta be good!!!
Keep up the good work.
Sending hugs to you.
Lots ove love
11-09-2018 10:42 PM
11-09-2018 10:21 AM
I wish you luck for today and hope that all goes smoothly with the PICC line.I can imagine what a big step it feels like.
Hope your se’s are improving and you are taking good care of yourself. And I hope you find something good to eat, that takes your fancy, and to tempt your appetite. Lard at the beat of times...yuk!!!! 🤢
Sending love and hugs.
11-09-2018 10:15 AM
I hope you are not feeling too awful this morning and I hope you going to rest and take things easy. It seems awful to say that I’m glad your chemo went ahead and knowing how rough you’ll feel but at least you’re halfway there!!!
I am having a quiet week after the party ( its was great with cake and fizz etc) but I don’t drink very much and take care about the diet. Sad I know but after bc I’m just trying to take care of myself as much as possible.
Look after yourself. Sending gentle hugs and love from France.
love Rosie xx
10-09-2018 07:26 PM