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Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

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Re: Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

helenann, This is the best blog I've found for a bit of a rant.  I totally get where this lady is coming from, grateful but with collateral damage.......

http://nancyspoint.com/breast-cancer-treatments-collateral-damage-lets-talk-part-1/

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Re: Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

I, too can totally relate to this.

Chocxie - you and I had the mastectomy on the same date (24th Sept) and like you, I haven't had to have chemo or rads. I'm sort of getting used to people saying how well I look - someone even said I looked better than I did before the cancer was diagnosed (er--- I dont think so!!!).

It does drive me mad when people comment on how 'lucky' I am that I haven't had to go through chemo as they 'believe' its awful - and it's true - I do count myself lucky to have dodged the dreaded chemo (and my heart goes out to everyone that haven't been so 'lucky'πŸ˜ͺ) but it doesn't lessen what I've had to go through - I 'lost' a whole breast for gods sake and still going through it with more surgery still yet to come.

Still having weekly appointments at the breast unit to have my expander filled (which is uncomfortable and sore for a few days following the fill) and have been started on Letrozole - which is making me feel sick, tired and achey and miserable and narky.

I think some people think if you're not having chemo you're not still going through treatment and you 'got off lightly' - I still VERY much feel like I'm going through treatment, the weekly hospital visits makes sure of that - not to mention the emotional rollercoaster I still feel I'm on and don't feel I got off lighlty at all!

Like you, Chocxie, I've been signed off work  - I'm off until after Christmas - I don't think I could go to work as I'm SO tired.

Feel better for that rant - thanks Drummerswidow for starting this thread giving me a opportunity to rant and rave for a bitπŸ‘

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Re: Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ Totally relate to this. I'm now getting asked if I'm back at work yet. No, I'm ****** not.

Yes, I'm through the surgery. No, I don't need chemotherapy and yes, I've signed up to a trial which has decided I don't need radiotherapy either, although there's still a question mark over further rads.

So I've *just* got the hormone therapy to contend with. Well, I haven't been on it a week yet and the side effects are entertaining, to say the least.

So, I'm signed off with my BCN and GP's blessings, taking time for myself to get over this emotionally, mentally and still physically, until the SEs are under control.

Hope you're having a good day Drummerswidow. How about another coffee outing tomorrow? X
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I had my mastectomy and node clearance on 19th October and quickly got a seroma. Now been drained 5 times. Frustrating but thankfully painless to have it drained as area totally numb. Day at a time x
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Re: Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚. Thank you xx

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I'm making you a badge to put on over your missing booby. It has an arrow pointing up with the message....

My face is up there! πŸ‘

Hope you had a good outing with your friend. πŸ’πŸ€πŸ’‹

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Re: Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

Very true. It’s early days but still trying to get my head around it. I now have a seroma
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I know that feeling, I was tempted to draw a scary face where my boob was and try it out at Halloween πŸ˜‚
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Re: Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

Drummerswidow good for you, I hope you enjoyed your coffee and your rant and I hope your friend put a smile back on your face.  Sometimes you just have to let it out and it isn't always pretty pink. xx

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Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

I know people don’t know what to say or how to react.

 

However my face hasn’t slipped down into the space where my left breast used to be. It’s still where my face should be! And yes I do look well. I’m not sure how I should look having got breast cancer and had a mastectomy. Inside I feel bloody awful and I want to scream and cry but I try not to in public. Though I did lose it at the hairdressers on Friday afternoon! (No screaming involved).

 

So when you ask me how I am and I say β€˜I’m fine I’m okay’ actually I’m not. I am not pointing the finger or accusing anyone. Not everyone is guilty of doing it. It’s just a personal viewpoint. There are fb friends who are going through cancer, have been through cancer and have had loved ones go on this journey. It might help folk to know how to react. When I say I don’t know what treatment I may need, I really do mean I don’t **bleep** know. I’ll let you know when I do and I tell you when I’ve got MY head around it.

 

So today I’m putting on my makeup and going out for a coffee with a friend who’s going to make me laugh and tell me to snap out of it and stop feeling sorry for myself!

 

But please just remember my face hasn’t moved it’s still where it should be!

Enjoy your Sunday xx