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October 2017 Chemo Starters

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Thanks Cassie and mishy 😘😘 💃🏻💃🏻🕺🕺💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻Was a big 💃🏻💃🏻🕺🕺💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻Moment that’s for sure and called for a bit of dancing queen by ABBA 💃🏻💃🏻🕺🕺💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻😘💕✨✨✨Shi xx
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Shi brilliant news re your mammo 👍
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Hi all.
Good news Jencat and Shi 😘
Last weekend I was on a horseback archery course which I absolutely loved! It was amazing!!! Can't wait to do it again.
Hope you're all doing ok and having fun xx
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Great news Jencat 👍
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Jencat 👍👍👍👍wonderful news about your mammo 😁😁😁so very pleased for you ❤️❤️❤️Mine came back ok too 👍buddyfan, please put that dragonfly photo you too into countryfile competition it is a stunning photo you captured 💕💕✨✨Shi xx
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So glad you had a good weekend Jencat - did you give me a wave ?!! And great news about your mammogram too .
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Thanks for all your support and to Sue for putting my message on the forum. I had a lovely weekend and travelling 1st Class was a bonus! (Had to rough it on the way home though! Smiley Sad) Still felt a bit teary a couple of times, but I had a nice time, despite the roof leaking over my bed at the hotel on Sat night!

Good news-my mammogram was clear Smiley Happy xx

 

 

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Good to hear that Jencats ok on the train and on her way to see her friends. I'm glad she pulled her Wonder Woman pants up high and was very brave. I wouldn't want any of us to be missing out on stuff now. Just back from a lovely day in Essex with my family. Had a little too much to drink and slept all the way home 😂

 

Buddyfan, hope you're ok and enjoyed your holiday in Cornwall! 

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That's great Sue - she might as well travel in style !!!
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Just got this message off Jencat xxx

Would you mind letting forum i'm ok please as i'd said i was anxious about catching train to see friends for weekend-i'm on the train! Yd said how i was feeling to train staff&i'm now in 1st class! Tell jill i'll wave at lancaster! Won't have internet till mon eve (get mammo results then) Thank you xx
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😘😘😘hi jellytot hope you are doing ok darling, sorry you didn’t make London and hope to see you soon😘😘 thanks for this on the Tn ❤️❤️jencat 👭👭no wonder you’ve been a bit weepy darling, it’s understandable, we I am sure all have the whole finding it and where we were and who with firmly planted in our memories but little steps and building new positive memories is now what’s in order all at your own pace and when you are ready and you’ve been doing that already if you think about the packed few weeks you’ve had you’ve been doing amazing and you should be proud of yourself ❤️❤️👭hi Cassie, hope you are ok 👍😘😘💕💕✨✨Shi xx
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Many of us suffer from post traumatic stress disorder to varying degrees and sometimes certain things trigger a memory that takes us right back to those horrible feelings when first diagnosed .The first mammogram also seems to bring it right back too .I live on the West Coast Mainline about an hour from Carlisle give me a wave when you go past Lancaster !!! They have free films to watch now on Virgin trains now - download the Beam app and you have music tv and films to help distract you .
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Thank you as well Jill for telling me that anxiety is common after bc because I felt a bit silly, but can't help it, that I was fretting so much x

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Thank you Jill x No, my friend couldn't meet me because she's already booked onto an earlier train. Feeling a little calmer now and not so tearful, so I'm going to hopefully go as I think I will regret it if I don't. Both my girls have been great and have spoken to my friend for me and explained my anxiety further. YD is going to come up to London with me and then all I've got to do is sit on one train!

I think part of my upset (subconsciously) is that I was with these friends last year when I found my lump. It was my friend from Wales daughter's wedding and my other friends were there too and the morning of the wedding I found the lump whilst in the shower. I didn't mention it to anyone because I didn't want to spoil the wedding and weekend, but because I was there by myself, I told no-one the whole weekend and then travelled home by myself and as YD pointed out to me, we haven't all been together since and the memories have resurfaced and knowing I'm coming home to my yearly appointment with my consultant and to get my mammogram results hasn't helped either x

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Hello Jencat - don't feel stupid - anxiety is very common after treatment finishes and can be very debilitating .Its not surprising you feel a bit overwhelmed it's quite a lot to deal with - accept your daughters help and break the journey up a bit so it's a bit less overwhelming.The thought of these things is a lot worse than actually doing it - once you are settled on the train to Carlisle you will probably be fine .Can you arrange to meet your friend from Wales at a station en route -Crewe ??
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Thank you Mishy for your reassuring words and understanding x I think I am too hard on myself and also trying to be strong for my YD and elderly dad. I don't know where all the tears have suddenly come from and now I've started, finding it hard to stop! I don't even know what I'm crying about! And the anxiety-I was fine catching a train to London on Monday, but now I feel anxious about it.

ED has offered to come down from Oxford and meet me off my train from Kent, take me for a coffee and then put me on the train to Carlisle! (My friends will meet me there) Really kind of her, but I feel a bit stupid that I might need her to do that. A big part of me wants to go and I'm sure it would be good for me to get away, but I'm also worried that I will spoil everything for everybody else if I get tearful or can't cope.

The hospital where I had my radiotherapy phoned me this morning to say my counselling can begin next Thursday-funnily I was going to phone them myself this morning to see how soon it would be before I could start as I really want to have had some before I return to work in Sept (another anxiety!) x

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Jencat i agree do what is right for you i felt more vulnerable after the treatment than when on it as i felt i wasn't recovering as fast as i should have im a little bit ahead of you too i will tell you though this will pass and you will start to feel better gradually everyones recovery is different as some of us respond differently to chemo and some have more troubling se than others be kind to yourself thats some journey if your not 100% i couldn't have done it at yiur stage in recovery don't know uf i could still 👍 hope you are feeling a little better this morning 💖
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Thank you Cassie xx Unfortunately we can't meet half way this time because my friend from Wales and I are staying with my friend at Carlisle on Friday night and unbeknown to my Welsh friend, her daughter in Scotland is joining us and then a B&B is already booked at the Lake District for the weekend.

I don't know where the tears all came from last night, but I think I'm still vulnerable and I can't cope with too much pressure. I'm probably expecting too much of myself a little too soon xx

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Hi Jencat. Sending hugs xx
You do what's right for you. Maybe rearrange something with your friend and maybe meet half way so you don't have to travel so far. It's not a bad think to be putting yourself first. Gotta take care of no 1 xx
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Feeling weepy this evening, it's a bit like the floodgates have opened and now it's a bit difficult to stop! I'm meant to be staying with my friend in Carlisle this weekend to celebrate another close friend's birthday (going Fri-Mon) but it's a long journey from Kent. When we arranged it 6mths ago I was still having chemo and I thought I'd be fine by now. I've still got neuropathy in my feet and fingers and not much stamina and I'm not sure I can do the journey, just the thought of it makes me feel tired! My friend was sweet and said she didn't think I was up to coming and I'll find the weekend tiring as it will be busy, but we'll get together another time and I need to put my health first. I don't think it has helped me mentally that I would be coming back to a consultant's app and my mammogram results. (Had a bit of a scare this morning because the hospital phoned and immediately I thought it must be because of last week's mammogram. My consultant isn't going to be there next Tues now, so the call was to change my app to Monday eve) My head is telling me it's a long way to go, but my heart is telling me that I want to go and see my friends.

ED has offered to drive me some of the way, which is kind of her. If I don't go, she's going to spend some of the weekend with me and said we'll do some nice things together.

Sorry to go on, just feeling a bit sorry for myself and frustrated that I'm not back to how I was pre-bc yet xx

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Thanks sue 💕💕💕jencat, buddyfan ❤️❤️❤️And everyone else 💃🏻💃🏻🕺🕺💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💕💕✨✨✨Shi xx
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Have added in some alternative dates if you can vote for your preference ladies
https://doodle.com/poll/zyydg9w7dk6a3dd7
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Hi ladies I am trying to arrange next meet up

Set up this poll to try and get a date suitable for everyone if you can vote please all welcome

https://doodle.com/poll/a4ambsd3wz789qzi
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Aye Shi we were def away with the fairies last night worst thing is we can blame the cancer drugs anymore i swear i think i am missing a few brain cells since treatment 😨 haha 😂😂😂😂😂
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Mishy we were both away with the 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️Last night ✨✨✨✨😁😁😁meesh you kept me 😁😁😁👍👍👍yesterday as always thank you and thank you ladies for checking up on me yesterday to see how it went ❤️❤️Love you. Buddyfan, hope your holiday is going well my darling and you are having a lot very time. Still think you should enter your dragonfly photo to country file competition, it is an amazing photo. Jencat hope your extended birthday weekend is 💃🏻💃🏻🕺🕺💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻👍👍👍💕💕✨✨✨shi xx
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Jencat, hope you had a good birthday 🎉 yesterday.

Mishy, glad you're loving your curls and that the tips were useful. I also have my hair in a sort of inverted bob type style, although as you've probably found out styling curly hair can be tricky as some areas curl more than others 😂

Shi, glad you were ok yesterday hope my texts helped cheer you up 😊
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Shi glad you are feeling OK i think you have a very good coping strategy there will give it a go!!! Love the fairy story with you and your Grandma its lovely yes i think i will do something like that for Ella even though shes only 10 months she was very intrigued by the little doors on the trees in the woods tbh i think I enjoyed it to!! Reminded me of a story my grandma used to read me when i stayed with her the faraway tree by Enid Blyton isn't it funny how something can remind you of such an old memory they definitely stsy with you and of course Shi you are def a Sparkle 👑 haha!!! I looked up the meaning of Ellas name and it means fairy like girl!!!!!
Went off tangent abit there!!!! Haha glad everything went well for you today 👍👭💪 keep sparkling Shi x
Have a fab week everyone x
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Hi jencat, hope you had a look very birthday even though you didn’t get to seaside or did you go anyway? I like the fact you are having a “birthday extended weekend” by the sound of it enjoy it all darling😘mishy glad you had a look very day too with daughter and granddaughter ❤️❤️❤️You will have to get her a fairy nighty when she’s a bit older so when she has a stop over with you, you can tell her the fairy left something for her and then let her find a glittery little fairy nighty 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️That’s what my gran did for me and it’s still one of the most lovely memories I cherish ❤️❤️Mammo was ok and not painful, just 🙏🙏🙏🙏now for all ok when results come through. Thanks for asking everyone, it has been quite a 😳😳😳but I did have a bit of a shop before I went so I could think about the pretty things I bought and take my mind off it all for a bit and be me and forget for a bit this has all actually happened. Anyone else try and zone out just for a bit and pretend it never happened or is that just my coping mechanism? 💕💕💕✨✨✨✨shi xx
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Jencat celebrate on Tuesday with your ED hope you had a good day x today was lovely in Newcastle so me daughter and Grandaughter had a lovely day out at plessy woods its beautiful there i can't wait to see our Ella enjoy it when shes a little older the trees have little fairy doors and ogre houses with some trees in one part with eyes painted on its like an enchanted forest an absolutely beautiful place we are lucky to have it but its a half hour drive at spring its awash with Bluebells the locals call it blue bell woods!!!!
My garden is looking a little limp think it needs a good water ytheres a job for me im not looking forward to my poor dog has an upset tummy has been sick a few times i rang the vets and the have told me to starve her then a bland diet shes not interested in food so not like her shes a greedy lab poor girl shes def not herself 😔 Shi i hope you were ok today pet its a milestone which unfortunately we all have to cross ♀️
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Happy birthday Jencat x
How did you get on today Shi? Hope it went well x
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Thank you Sue x I feel like having a tantrum cause it's raining and I wanted to go to the seaside, but I suppose you can't do that when you're 59?! Smiley Happy Never mind, we'll do something else nice instead and I'll have birthday mark 2 on Tuesday when ED is home too Smiley Happy

When is your mammogram? xx

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Morning all and happy birthday Jencat x
Glad you got through mammogram I am sure I will be just as emotional as you when it’s my turn xxx
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Morning Mishy x Yes it was the same for me, no gown and got changed in the mammo room. Still feel a bit sore, but my boob felt quite tender before I went! (Onc said last week that's nerve endings still sorting themselves out)

Thinking of you Shi x Btw, I took a couple of paracetamol before I went, which helped xx

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Jencat im not sure if thats a thing everywhere being seen first but i know in my case i went straight through didn't even have to wear a gown just straight in mammo room got undressed in there thrn straight out again xx Shi 💖💪 for today the 1st one is the hurdle in recovery we have to get over but i promise its fine xxx
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Happy birthday jencat hope you have a beautiful day 💕💕💕✨✨✨shi xx
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Reassuring to know that the anxiety I felt yesterday was normal Mishy. Didn't realise bc ladies were seen first, I thought it was because I was upset x

Thank you too for the birthday wishes x

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Thank you for the reassurance Jill x

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Been meaning to say, I'm really sorry but I ended up with 2 pink pens in my goody bag from Sue, so I must have taken someone else's as well as mine! Smiley Embarassed x

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Isn't it your first mammogram this week Shi? xx

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Mishy Chemo mullet 🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣I’m so glad you are happy with your new hair do and it’s give you 😁😁😁that’s great and lovely to hear, gives the rest of us chemo mullet sporting chics hope that in a few more mullet months we can hot foot it to salon for a new do 🧑👍👍Chemo mullet 😂🤣😂🤣😂I so needed your 🖕🖕🖕humour thanks 💕💕💕✨✨✨shi xx
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Jencat the first mammo is a little 😩 i know when i had mine in June i was exactly the same as you pleased when the results came back i had to wait a little while for them but kind of knew after a week and a bit had passed it should be fine, Shi you too sweetie you will be fine they tend to let us bc ladies get in and out i think to help with the anxiety well my trust seem to do it i didn't have to wait with others in waiting area 👍 pleased to hear you had a lovely birthday jencat for you 🎂 have a good one well ladies had my first hair cut today i persevered with the wild curls as i didn't want to end up having the same style continuously used little scarf type hair band things which are really fashionable atm, i finally have a proper style which doesn't scream cancer back at me in the mirror got rid of the chemo mullet had it graduated at back into a short curly way bob/pixie type style it makes me feel much more confident and comfortable as i was starting to hate my hair as it was so uneven but i have to say i think I will miss the curls if they dont stay i have grown to really like them!! Meesh i took your advice about my hair and 👍
Lovely to see you all had a lovely time at your meet up 👭👭👭👭👭👭
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Totally normal Jencat - it really takes you back to the trauma of diagnosis .My second mammogram post treatment was a lot easier.
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Thank you Shi x I'd got tomorrow all planned out, fancied a day at the seaside with YD. (unfortunately ED can't get away from work, but will celebrate with her at a later date! Smiley Happy) A walk along the front and pier, a nice lunch and then a browse around the gift shops and then my Dad's going to take us out for a meal in the evening-feel very blessed that he is still able to do that+ drive down to me at the age of 90! However it looks like it's going to be sunny every day for the next few days apart from tomorrow! It never rains on my birthday! (Apart from last year when it poured and I made my YD take me out even though it was only a few days after my op, so wasn't walking very fast!) Might have to think of a Plan B for part of the day! xx

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Hi jencat😘😘well done you darlings for getting through yesterday 💪💪💪💪if any of us aren’t a bit 😳😳😳with these first mammograms then that’ll be surprising as I didn’t see any of us had robot packs on our backs this weekend. Now enjoy your birthday lovely, celebrate and 💃🏻💃🏻🕺🕺💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻😘😘😘😘💕💕✨✨shi xx
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Thank you all for your good wishes, I'm fine, although a little tender (might not be because of the mammogram, boob was already a bit sensitive before I went!)

Everything was fine, but I ended up having a bit of a cry at the breast clinic! I was ok until I sat in the waiting room and then being there last year came flooding back! The nurse was very nice and let YD come with me into the inner-waiting room as well and then I was first to be called-not sure if I was just fortunate or whether they wanted to see me quickly incase I upset anyone else!

The nurse had already told the radiographer I was upset, which was just as well as I ended up having a cry on her as well! I asked her if this was normal and she said that it was, but it gets easier by the time you get to about your third one-does it?! She was matter of fact, but very nice. It was a bit painful, but bearable. Had to do an extra image as one was blurry (not on bc breast fortunately) but she said it was better to do it now than me being recalled and panicking why! Results in 2wks when I see my consultant-guessed that would be the case as I received that appointment letter last September! xx

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Jencat are you ok darling? Please let us know, ❤️❤️❤️💕💕✨✨✨shi xx
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Hello ladies! Great to meet some of you at the weekend I really had a fab time. Thank you Sue for arranging it for us.

 

Jencat, hope you got on ok at the mammogram and your boob isn't too sore.

 

Have we settled on a date for the next meet up? 

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How did you get on Jencat?
I think the first mammo is going to be hard for everyone. I don't think I'll get mine until April but quite fancy just getting it out of the way.
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Hi jencat 👭👭👭darling❤️❤️Yes understand totally, mines this Thursday and trying to look at is as another hurdle on the journey bit like putting your ticket in machine to get out of the station seeing as we pulled the train 🚂 in at the weekend 😘😘😘👍👍👍keep 💪💪💪it’ll be fine, that’s what I keep telling myself anyway 😘😘please let us know how you get on 💕💕✨✨shi xx