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Hi ladies what a beautiful morning it is today
Missa how are you lovely i hope things gave settled a little for you and if you have started treatment that its SE are kind when we last spoke you were talking about treatments just wanted to send you a big hug and positive vibes
Tatanya i hope you had a fab time at your freinds it does you the world of good getting away from it all sometimes i was lying awake for hours last night just thinking about things (i get like this from time to time) and thought to myself i need another break away Scotland was lovely but i made tge mistake of trying to cram loads in to a short time resulting in beibg knackered anything from the relaxing break it was meant to be so i thought once my plan is in place for neuro stuff (i have 2 more scans next week before they can decide) i will be having a few days away at Seahouses all you can do there is relax its nit commercial enough to do anything else just how i like it ny gial will be to walk tge beach from Seahouses to Bamburgh Castle you cannot beat the view as the castle approaches you its beautiful fir now im going to enjoy some Autumn walks Missa i hope your lovely OH is putting your new wheels to good use and you can enjoy Autumn too its lovely and sunny in Newcastle i hope it is everywhere else, so you can all enjoy nice walks out or some time in Garden relaxing
Angela we should meet up some time for a cuppa if you are up to it thanks for the recipe tips bye tge way i kove cooking atm its really akk i can do mind you my son or oh has to chop all veg and open cans etc due to my hands
Carole hope your appointment went well and you are nit having too much pain in your foot and ankle kimi hey if you read this hi i hope life is treating you well and all is good
Suoer excited my lovely Ella is a year old tomorrow cannot believe it where has the year gone so much has happened in such a short time
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Hi tatyana 😘😘😘just in 🤪🤪🤪Shi land most of the time and working and shopping in fact a lot of shopping 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻🤪🤪🤪🤪💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻😁😁😁how are you beautiful have you managed a weekend away? 😘😘😘💕💕✨✨✨Shi xx
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How are you doing Shi? Hope you are enjoying life!
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❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Ftf, tatyana and mishy ❤️❤️❤️❤️ it’s nearly a year since you beautiful amazing ladies looked after us girls on oct17 thread, just wanted to say thank you again for being so amazing and inspirational 😘😘you give us 💪💪💪💪to keep fighting 😘😘😘💕💕💕✨✨✨✨Shi xx
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Thanks for the tip Michelle. 👍
I love a dinner just not the clearing up. 😀
Enjoy your day. Xxx
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Jamie Oliver makes a cracking fool proof Yorkshire pudding got my tips off him apparently if you don't dribble the batter between puddings they rise better!!!
Im only cooking for 3 if us today probably will take some for my mam later best get the chicken in fir a late dinner xxx enjoy your family lunch everyone xxx
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Good morning tatyana. How great that you’re enjoying a few days away in your camper van. It’ll be lovely to catch up with your old friend.

I’d love to grow old but wouldn’t want to be in a care home. And dementia would be my greatest fear.
However, I think it’s only natural for us to think why can some grow old and others not.
When I went for my mammogram last yr and was diagnosed with bc there was a lady there who was 100. She was complaining that at her age she shouldn’t have to go through the anxiety. As it turned out she didn’t have it and I did. The look on my husband’s face when she came out of her appointment with a massive smile on her face and I’d just been given the bad news. 😳

It’s niot that we wished the poor women any ill, but we wouldn’t be human if we didn’t think why me and not her. I know that’s unfair, but still, it did cross our minds. Life isn’t fair is it. It’s as simple as that.

How absolutely terrible for those young men Michelle. There is always someone worse off isn’t there. I feel I’m being robbed of my future some days but I’ve had double the life they have. I hope they’re both okay in the end.
My dad has been dead over two years now and I still often have bad days. Especially Sundays as he died on a Sunday. And of course there’s on less place at the table.
Anyway, I’m being ever so dreary. I’m going to cheer myself by having a Yorkshire pudding and get ready for the family to arrive in an hour. And the sun is shining here so I think today will be a good day.

Love Angela. Xxx
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Tatanya enjoy visiting your friend i love campervans!!! Even in tge rain i love a caravan!
Was feeling very sentimental yesterday about my dad and just found iut about someone i knows daughters boyfriend only 22 he and his twin were both diagnosed with testicular cancer 18months ago ge had op to remove his and his brother eent through treatment etc well the poor lad has got it back after a tear in remission poor las thought he was done with it and i couldn't help but feel why oh why and yes my nana is in a care home too with late stage alzheimers shes had a great life but although shes comfortable and well in herself uts just not her anymore i hope i never came across as spiteful towards the elderly I don't mean it!!!!! There are some real characters in my nanas home and their dementia seems to have created brand new persona's my nana however is just lying there in her silent world how i miss her bolshyness
Very cold out so today im going to make a chicken dinner
Love to you all xx
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Angela and Michelle, I'd love to give both of you a big hug right now! If it's any consolation, the thing about envying older people doesn't stop when you get older!! I'm 64 and in recent months I've sometimes had to struggle with my feelings around my parents who are 95. They are in a care home now and both suffering from various ailments and slow dementia, it's a very sad thing to see and there's nothing anyone can do, they are well looked after and relatively comfortable. But until well into their 90s they lived a very happy and independent life. So now when they complain- quite justifiably- about how awful things are, I can't help thinking about the 30 years of good life that they had after retiring, which I'm not going to get... I wouldn't wish dementia on anyone, but I don't think my own situation is much better thank you! And then of course I feel mean for having that thought.

But thoughts are just thoughts. More to the point, right now we're in Cambridgeshire in the campervan in the pouring rain, looking forward to lunch with my oldest friend who I havent seen for a year!
Love and hugs to all, and love also to all our grandchildren!
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I agree with everything you’ve said Michelle. If we were speaking face to face I think we’d of had a big hug by now.
Cancer definitely makes us feel everything on a deeper level. Like I’ve said before; I’m living in technicolour now.
Xxx
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Angela you are one 💪 lady yoy really are knew it when we first spoke on here you enjoy being granny i bet your kids a really proud of you i know mine are of me the don't tell me but every so often they will send me a little message text ir card to remind me 😍😍😍
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Your trwins were def meant to be me too mam to Holly at 19 who gave me my little Ella and i don't mind a bit being a Granma at 47 i don't care what other people say my mam was granny when i had Holly and she was young too, age doesn't define us love does i say and have buckets loads of love left in me in fact sometimes when i look at my little family i get really emotional which is something i never experienced before any of this happened although i had moments of love for them and pride now its different
Eeh im getting all emosh thinking about it 😍😍😍😍😍
Yeah i certainly look at life a whole lot differently nowadays xx
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Hi Michelle.
I totally get the jealous thing when seeing old people. I first felt that when my dad dropped dead at 69. Watching old couples holding hands and thinking why them and not my Mam and dad. 🤔
Now I see people in their 50s and think lucky you. Will I get there? In fact I had a bad day last week where I thought ‘do I really need to buy anti wrinkle cream anymore if my face isn’t going to get any older’. 😳
I gave myself a hard slap after that thought and moved on. 🙄
It is the loveliest thing in the world when a little person loves you. I’m granny. People always say how can you be a granny you’re so young. At 44 I am a young granny, but a very very grateful one.
When I had my twins at 16 I thought ‘have I wasted my life’. Now I know it was meant to be.
Anyway, on a brighter note, let’s all enjoy what’s left of the good (ish) weather. My garden has had a haircut today and is looking rather splendid. Xxxx
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The wind is harsh isn't it been shopping today for Ellas birthday presents well the rest of them, i was bloody knackered when i got back i just don't seem to have the stamina any more!!
Ah a bet rbe funeral was a sad occasion but wow 99 i don't know why but ever since diagnosis I feel a twinge of envy when i see real oldies celebrating a long life and feel how unjust it is that some people are able to do that when orhers aren't then i feel spiteful for thinking like that good on her i bet some of her stories were fantastic and yeah you right living in the olden days with fashions and breakthroughs in technology things we take for granted we're not even around it seems surreal doesn't it im pleased you had a close relationship with her irs lovely to have someone in your life like that i miss having grandparents its a special relationship i love being a Granma its totally different to being a mam 💖
I think i might go in the garden tomorrow for a little potter before the weather changes and get it ready for winter nit that i can do much atm so frustrating this neck thing i literally need someone to do nearly everything little thing couldn't even carry shopping bags which i part of the experience u think 😂😂
Anyway i need to stop my winging Angela use your persuasive charm and plan that next break 👍
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Morning ladies.
I’ve hope you’ve all had a good week.
Hi Michelle. I’ve been to Macmillan at my local hospital, but not maggies as it’s just too far away.
It’s lovely that you and your Mam are donating to the fete. It’ll be lovely.
I’m not enjoying this windy weather, although the bitterness in the wind does help with my hot flushes. 😀 there’s always a bright side.
Pleased you had a nice time in Scotland. I’m starting the get itchy feet for a holiday. I just need to do a bit of arm twisting first I think.
I was at an old neighbours funeral yesterday. It was a sad day, she was such a lovely lady and like a nana to me. She was 99. 😳 what a long life. Seeing photos of her when she was young it was hard to get my head around what they were wearing. She was alive in the OLDEN days.
We’ve not got much on this weekend. A bit of tree trimming and the family for dinner tomorrow.
I hope everyone is doing well. It’s appointment after appointment for me next week. Xxx
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Hi ladies just checking in on you all hoping everyone is OK and had a good week
Enjoyed Scotland but was pleased to get home before the gales hit!!!!
Angela i don't k ow if you are aware but the Maggies based in Freeman hospital grounds has a secondary bc support group i don't know if its your thing or not but I thought i would mention it
They are having a xmas fete 24 November so my mam has been making cards gift boxes etc to help raise some funds im going to make a hamper for the raffle i will be attending as they got me through some tough times during my chemo days when i lost dad and im eternally grateful to them for that, i don't attend now as i feel im ok without it but will continue to support them and attend events lije that
Hope everyone isn't too badly effected by the wind im off to take izzy for a walk before it gets up again xxx
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Hoping you have a lovely time in Scotland Michelle. Isn’t it just great to get away for a few days.
I LOVE holidays. My hubby isn’t so keen. He’d rather stay at home.
He’s not a very willing masseuse either Carole. I make him do it bless him 😂

I’m coping well with the meds Michelle. Won’t find out if they’re doing their job until 3 month scan which is about 6 weeks off. Sure the fear monster will try and creep back in as that approaches. 🙃
Until then I’m staying positive. 👍

I’m hand holding back. Xxxx
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Thanks Angela I will look at that one.  With my chemo brain I just couldn’t face trying to sort a potted history of the last five years where I’ve learched from one hospital to another.  

I’m not sure I could get husband to massage my feet as he would want me to return the favour with his bad feet! Yuk!, never liked his feet 🤣

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Carole enjoy your trip im going to Scotland for a few days tomorrow Angela hsve a lovely day out with your mam and daughters its quite nice out but chilly but sunny
Missa hope you are feeling a little better today and yeah fab news about the trial immunotherapy im have every faith you will be in the group that receives it and the her status as Angela says opens up possibilities for othe drugs which you may not have benefit from before i hope yiu have ordered that pillow!! Tatanya you toi lovely have a good weekend im not sure how weather is going to fair up but hopefully you will get some time in your garden and Kimi hi too haven't heard from you in a while hope all is good
Angela how you doing on your treatment i hope its going well xx take care ladies as always got your hands 👭👭👭
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Morning Carole.
Your holiday sounds absolutely lovely. Just watching the weather and apparently temperatures are on the rise. 🌞
Apparently insurewith was set up by someone with bc and is very good so maybe something for you to look into for next year.
A lot of secondary ladies use it. I spoke to one lady in the chemo ward who has all sorts of ailments as well as liver and bone mets and she paid around £105 for insurance with them for a holiday to lanzarote.

Hoping you find the perfect pair of comfy shoes. My husband has been rubbing my foot while we watch telly on a night and it seems to be working. 😳😳
Totally shocked; it isn’t half as bad as it was. Xxx