Thank you Daisy but I dont think I have artistic genes at all. My drawings started off absolutely awful so instead I used to mainly collage or use rubber stamps.
They still aren't great - I see so many faults (don't look too closely at that blue car ) - but the more I practice the better it gets.
There are some people with God given natural talent. The rest of us just need to put the hours in
And even if the end result isn't brilliant I love the process regardless and can thoroughly recommend it
Sarah you are so very talented. I used to love Art, think I might try and get back into it again. Good luck for tomorrow x
Gosh I am miles behind with everyone.
Before I do a big catch up, Edinbird a big well done on getting through #4 and I am glad you didn't have a nasty reaction to the T. Very encouraging. Sorry about the cannula troubles though Do let me know how you get on tonight/ tomorrow as (hopefully) I'll be one day behind you
Trixielady sorry to hear they pushed you back. To be honest I was surprised they wanted you to go in so soon after being in hospital ill! Another week / few days to recover is probably just what you need BUT I know you must be gutted. I would be too.
Ok now back to where I left off....
Rosina, that article about the breast surgeon was so sad. All those years of training and she had to give up just as she got started Must admit I was very surprised by the first sentence about the fact she never checked her own boobies. You'd think she would be checking them every day with her knowledge of how common bc is and how they can do so much more for you if it is caught early. Just goes to show humans are utterly irrational! I bet Vulcans are more careful. Although I think by star trek time they had cured cancer completely anyway...
MBJ delighted to hear that you have some fresh hair growth on your bonce, even if you do need a magnifying glass that's so encouraging. My onco has twice now pointed out that in rare cases hair loss is permanent. I do wish he would stop saying that!!! I love my funky fake fringe but I dont want to still be wearing it in 3 years time!
Here is some encouragement, my pal, face blanked out for privacy, she finished chemo just over 4 years ago. Went totally bald v quickly, didn't cold cap. Her hair has grown back raally lovely. I first met her about 18 months after chemo and it was already at her shoulders.
Seaside Sar. You look the absolute picture of health and vitality on that bike! They could use you in an advert: the little jingle would go "See! Chemo ain't so bad!"
Glad the UK/Hungary game was fun. I'm not great with heat and sunshine, the rink sounds like a nice place to be at the moment did you learn any good Hungarian swear words? I used to work with a Hungarian lad, he was super nice, his middle initial was A and i asked him once what it stood for. He refused to tell me. Finally got it out of him under the influence of alcohol months later. It was actually Atilla. For real!
Ocean good to hear from you and well done for getting on with the gardening. I kind of did mine by proxy this weekend too, the 2 16 year olds asked me what I wanted for a birthday present so I handed them gardening gloves, trowels and weed killer and told them I expected the garden pristine by the time I got home from Birmingham. They did a not too bad job. I've told them how they can get even higher marks next time
Susie I'm glad you are feeling a little more comfortable about the surgery. I can't stress enough how much of a doddle my lumpectomy was (and my lump was 30mm). Lovely deep refreshing sleep after the general anaesthetic. Day and a half in hospital getting waited on hand and foot and then home with very little pain, all manageable with paracetamol and gentle exercises. And if your surgeon is anything like mine they will do a little nip tuck and lift while they are at it and you get a lovely pert boobie people pay good money for that!
Lymph nodes I know less about. They took 2 of my sentinel nodes out to biopsy. I thought they were clear as they had already done a scan and assured me all looked cancer free. But they did find a teeny tiny bit of the nasty stuff in one of the two. As they can't see anything on scans for the rest they have told me I don't need a full node clearance as if there are any more little breakaway cancer cells the chemo and radio should send them packing. I hope they are right!
And I am glad to read that side effect wise you are feeling so much better
Rosina again. Reading about the benefits of meditation for you, that's what painting does for me. Totally empties my brain (in a good way) and calms me down. I get really agitated if I can't do it for a few days. Same with swimming and the gym - although I'm having to live without those for now. I guess painting and exercise must be my yoga nidra!
Talking of painting I finally finished that page I have been working on off and on for everrrrr. So glad it is done!!! One page left of this 5 page story and I'm finished- thankfully as I want to do some different things for a bit, get the easel out and do some big canvasses I think.
Oh and love your photos. I haven't seen any bluebells yet this year. Must get on that.
Sonia - gorgeous seaside photos!!! Oh gosh I wish I lived closer to the sea!
Oh and I am ER plus and HER minus. Nobody has ever mentioned the third one to me.... PR?
I think that is me caught up. I'm just out for a little walk as I didn't leave the house yesterday!!! I worked on that comic page solid from 9am to 10pm do never got out of my jamas figured I had earned a lazy day after doing just under 30k steps over 2 days in Birmingham.
Just to prove all my local Swindon views aren't horrid, I am currently sat by the local duck pond and it is quite pretty. Lots of noisy teens here though (out of shot) so not as peaceful as usual
Only other amusing thing to note is call from my sister:
Sis: " I haven't got you a birthday present"
Me: (thinking , she hasn't for years so what's new!!!) "That's ok"
Sis: "do you wear perfume"
Me: "hardly ever"
Sis: "I'll get you some perfume"
Me: "well the chemo has messed my sense of smell up a bit"
Sis: " I've just Amazon Primed you some perfume"
Looks like I'm getting perfume! Whether I want it or not!
Love to all of you whether I've mentioned you or not. All of you are in my thoughts all the time. We are family.
Glad you've ticked another one off, Edinbird. Take it easy now.
Trixielady, I'm HER2+ ER+ PR+ and I'm due my first herceptin on Wednesday. Cycles 4, 5 & 6 will be given in the unit and after that I'll be given injections at home.
Sorry your chemo did not go ahead. Mind you I was surprised to read it was happening so soon after your discharge. Did they give you any idea why you were feeling so unwell, do they need to do anything to address it? Take the week to get yourself stronger for your next round. X
Well done Edinbird,
hope you get a good nights sleep 😴 keep us posted.
Trixielady, don’t be hard on yourself.
Glad you liked my photos.
There are lots of bluebells out there. I went out again this evening. They are everywhere around here.
No sign of the deer though, I spot birds or dog breeds instead 🤪 I also have songs mentally playing in my head . Here is one of them
Trixelady, sorry you couldn't go ahead today but the extra days will pay dividends xx I'm her2 pos and will start herceptin 3 weeks after final chemo, nurse told me I would have to stay in for 6 hours in case of a reaction....did you? How was it? Xxx
Trixie I think there are a few HER+ on this thread cos I was thinking of asking if anyone else was Oestrogen+ as there seems to be a lot of talk about Herceptin and I think that is only given to HER+. I am ER+ HER- I think!
Oh Rosina, bluebell Woods are absolutely amazing your photo brought back some wonderful childhood memories when we lived in Ashford Kent, there was a wonderful wood and the bluebells always made me so happy and seeing your photos actually made me forget how unhappy i was today after yet another chemo cancelled xx so thank you once again xx
Hi Ladies, hoping you've all had a lovely day? Edinbird so pleased you started T today don't forget to drink plenty and rest up , unfortunately i was unable to have mine today hopefully next weeks can go ahead after seeing my oncologist this Friday bit taken aback don't know why cause i already knew i wasn't well enough to have it.
Is anyone else HER2 positive ? I watched a film about Herceptin the injections for HER2 and the trouble getting it to market so pleased they did, its ok but not as informative as i thought it might have been still had me crying mainly because i was feeling happy for myself in a sorry kinda way as I'd started herceptin last Monday xx
So glad that the first T is over for you, hope you will feel ok in the next few days. Relax and rest now. X
Glad you're done Edinbird. Lets see what the next few days bring. I have worn 2 different size cold caps. The first I had a small, then I had a medium and then I had a small again and Ive got a big head I think! Just been to the beach with my new sun hat on. Does the trick. My sister was in shorts and t-shirt and I am in jeans, long sleeved top with a fleece waistcoat and sunhat and I am usually the hot one. I am always cold nowadays!
Edinbird, well done☺. Glad you didn't get a reaction to the T but sorry the cannula was problematic☹. It's when I hear of those sorts of problems I'm grateful for Klingon (PICC line). Get some rest now and take it easy🛌🏾🛋. xxxxxxxx
Oh edinbird, iv literally been waiting for your post...phew! It's done....your going home.....relax and do what you gotta do.......so glad and relieved that T is out out of the ...( until the next one)
I have survived! Well I’m on my way home anyway.
Took 4 goes to get the cannula in... new record 😂 then a good old faff with the cold cap given I’ve lost a lot of hair where they aim to preserve... bottom line I’m between sizes so I could end up proper Friar Tuck but I’ll live with my hats on.
No reaction to the drugs but got proper cold with the cap on which seemed weird when it’s so hot outside. Started feeling a bit iffy so had to have a sandwich for the journey as well as during the treatment but eating normally sorts me out.
So now to wait and see what happens... still not been given anything for diarrhoea and still can’t take ibuprofen so hoping any aches and pains are manageable.
Trixie how are you getting on? xx
“The "do they still do chemo over Easter" question isn't as daft as it sounds. My chemo unit completely shut from Friday to today inclusive. “
Same on this end.
Going in for bloods tomorrow morning.
In the meantime I enjoyed a stroll around Wakehurst Place with my daughter. Photos attached 😊
After writing a couple of posts to individuals this morning I thought I'd better send a general greeting to all you lovely ladies.
Trixielady glad you're home☺. Chemo this afternoon? Wow! Go girl.🏅.
Loving all the photos. Edinbird the car parking? was epic. My other half did suggest that only a woman would have left a car like that. Bit sexist I know☹. I begged to differ. He did ask if your car had been damaged at all thus demonstrating his more caring side☺.
Good luck to all of you having chemo this. I know for some of you huge changes are afoot but I know you'll all cope. I think we're all stronger than we think💪.
As for me, I'm feeling much better now. Think a combination of doing too much 1st week after chemo, lack of sleep and cumulative effect of chemo sessions finally took their toll last week. On the taste buds front water finally tastes normal which is just aswell during this warm weather🌡☀️. Bowels back to normal☺. Indigestion/heartburn gone, but some burping stubbornly remains😲. Bought yet more bandanas and a couple more PICC line covers on- line yesterday, oops. If I can get them to match what I'm wearing then I think I'll be brave enough to wear them out. Intend to do a trial run this afternoon when we go to a garden centre. The PICC line with a short sleeved top is a bit of a problem - look at me I'm having treatment it's shouting📣. I'm just going to have to put those big pants on.
Have a lovely everyone. Today's chemo girls keep us posted ❤❤❤❤❤
i have spend most of my weekend up the caravan so not a lot of signal, so will update later when I’m home.
Just wanted to say good luck Edinbird and Trixielady today 🍀
our chemo unit shuts for Easter, so bloods will be tomorrow and chemo fingers crossed Wednesday, they did say last week they would have to squeeze me because of the bank holiday, but have managed it. Luckily in our unit we can take a few people in,my sister has come to each session and one of my group of friends, they have all taken a session each, we were called the party corner lady session.
catch up later ladies enjoy the last of the bank holiday 🐇🐥🌞
glad to hear you are back home.
Good Luck with Chemotherapy this afternoon 🍀🍀🍀
Re. Meditation I started using the Calm app to manage stress levels ( about 7 months before my diagnosis) and I liked it. About 5 months before that I was having a full body massage ( to relax) and was finding that I couldn’t ‘switch off mentally ‘ during the massage. My brain was whirring away which was exhausting. Then I had my mum during the summer break, pointing out to me that I was always thinking ahead. I told her that this was teaching for you, you are always planning and have to be one step ahead ( with plan A, B and C ready too in case what you had planned wasn’t working on that occasion ) thinking, tweeking, adjusting, personalising the learning to meet individual needs. I was permanently in overdrive.
It’s actually scary thinking about it now. The art therapy has helped me acknowledge this too.
Sometimes I just listen to the Calm app whilst lying in bed.
It is all about focusing on your breathing. I do this during my walking too.
I also now use what I have learned during chemotherapy and also prior to surgery or when stuck in a traffic jam. Anywhere when I feel tense, anxious or annoyed.
Lots of love,
Glad you're home Trixielady. I think we are all feeling nervous of the unknown. Sarah good luck with the steroids, Seaside you're this week too? I think we will all have to put those big knickers on again!
Morning all, just popping in to wish you loads of love and luck Edinbird. I know exactly how you feel as I feel the same except mine is next week. You can do this xxxxx
While I was busy editing and uploading photos, about 5 of you have posted messages 😂🤣
Morning to you all!
And yay Trixielady, you're home. That's great news 😊
My unit also took a break for Easter so my blood test is tomorrow. Treatments scheduled for Wednesday and Thursday which is all out of sync compared to my previous cycles...if they even go ahead, which I doubt.
I know, hair regrowth after just a few weeks is wishful thinking. To be honest, do I really want the badger look which is what I'll be heading for as my hair, what's left of it, has still retained its colour since being coloured at the beginning of Feb.
As for surgery I can't believe how calm I am at the moment. It's either because I'm focussing on events between now and 14th May or I'm in denial of what's to come. As for the surgery itself it'll be a lumpectomy, which shouldn't be too bad as Gremlim was only 21mm ×18mm to start with and after 2 cycles of chemo it had shrunk to around 10mm☺. I can feel that after my 4th chemo session it has shrunk yet again. Luckily it's got a marker in it so that the surgeon can locate it. As for my lymph nodes I haven't a clue. The original biopsy showed up some cancer cell involvement in one node. I'm due a scan next Monday so things should soon become a little clearer.
Enjoy your day and the beautiful sunshine☀️☀️☺xx
Good luck for today Edinbird. Sending you super strength. Hope all goes well. Xx
Thank you for the compliment Nettie. You are doing really well too. Don't forget, you've had a very tough time with hospital stays so a short walk is a big achievement. Xx
Nice to hear from you Ocean. Rotavators are great, aren't they? Save a lot of energy. Xx
Sarah, I hope the steroids help you to power through your next treatment. Xx
I had fun at the ice hockey yesterday. GB won 3-1 against Hungary. Their fans were great, jumping up and down and chanting throughout the game. No idea what they were saying. Hope it was nothing rude 😂🤣
Had a long walk around one of our local lakes yesterday morning. It was so lovely to walk in the sunshine. Picture below.
Have a good day everyone. Xx
Trixelady, your having chemo today??? Oh eck, good luck Hun, thinking of you heaps, god we really are warriors aren't we?? Xxxx
Edinburd, just popping in to support you today, really hope your up to a post later to tell us how it went...thinking of you LOADS.....xxxx
also see our trixelady is home...phew! About time too...rest easy Hun xxxx
catch you all later...love you all xxxxx
Trixielady so glad you are home and feeling better
The "do they still do chemo over Easter" question isn't as daft as it sounds. My chemo unit completely shut from Friday to today inclusive.
It's annoying as it means I haven't been able to have my bloods done for my (hopefully) treatment tomorrow. I couldn't get it done on Thursday before the Easter shut down as they said that's too early. So now I have to go in usual time for my treatment tomorrow but then sit around for 2 hours while they test my bloods, and then possibly get sent home if they aren't good enough.
My other half will be annoyed if that happens as he will have used up a day off work for nothing!
Trixielady, you are home!!!! Shame you have to go have chemo now but you should still be able to enjoy some sunshine. 💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼🙌🏻. Xxxx
Only slept from 11.30pm to 3.30am. Longest, hottest, boring night ever! I need to get stuff done today and get outside as much as I can. As I stopped steroids yesterday afternoon, the big slump will come later where I go so weak I can’t move for a day or two and so I need to battle through this 4 nights little sleep brain fog! My husband has realised he isn’t going to get much convo today so is keeping a wide berth! 😂😂😂 x
Cancer takes no break! I’m glad to be getting the T that should kill this nasty bugger off and I’m sure I’ll be fine. It’s just the ward policy they are so busy it’s just someone with you first time then you’re on your own. There’s not loads of space my stuff is always all over the floor!
Posted on my Facebook forums and now getting swamped!! It’s nice to know so many people care 😊
Trixie good luck too!! I feel better knowing there are two of us going today 🤗
I'm home safe and sound and hopefully having chemo this afternoon,
Edinbird good luck for today can't understand why they won't let your hubby in with you our unit allows at least 1
Daisydi hope your OK for next week hun
Implausible happy belated birthday and bathroom its looking good
Rosina you definitely put me to shame I'm going to start to try and push myself to do more exercise and meditation
I find it so difficult to drink all the fluids before chemo
Nettienoo how you doing after number 3??
Ocean21 how are you doing?
Seaside sar when is your next chemo
Marlyn hopefully your feeling better
MBJ so pleased your slowly rebuilding your life its so precious
Sandraindurham & V so what happened did they reduce Veronica's chemo? How are you both feeling now??
SusieB so how are you feeling now after number 4 what's happening next hun??
Sonia28 how are you doing ? Xx
Some people make you laugh ! Do they still do chemo over Easter? Oh no i just tell myself to shut my cancer off for the holidays wouldn't that be good xx
Just read your post and I can't believe that the unit won't let your husband sit with you. Did they explain why? I thought that throughout this horrible journey having someone with you at all times was actively encouraged. It certainly is here. I totally get that you're going to be anxious, as you say it's just like going back to the beginning. You're a strong girl and you got through the FEC and can and you will get through the T. Remember as horrible as chemo can be your body needs it and like me you have the physical proof that it's working. Hold onto that thought. Let the nurses know how concerned you are, it's their job to reassure you. We'll definitely be thinking of you. Chat away all you like, you know someone will always be listening. Take care. Sending you lots of hugs❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I hope everything goes well today I am sure it will. Can't believe you have got a massage lady how great is that! I hope she works bank holidays. You have prepared well and I know you will do everything right when you get home. Watch the sun though I think you will be more susceptible to it. Hope to hear an update later.
Edinbird was just popping on to wish you well, good luck today.
I think it is a little rough that they don't let you have company
Try not to worry about the allergic reaction thing, that's why they have pumped you full of steroids, to prevent that.
Which reminds me, I need to take mine!
Better go pop some pills....
Edinbird, make sure the staff know how nervous you are about T because you def need extra reassurance if your husband isn’t allowed to sit with you. You are a bloody strong girl though. It shines through on all your posts, however rough a time you are having. Who knows, you may find T a doddle after all you’ve been through? I really hope that is the case. Lots of love. Xxx
Morning all xx
Serious steroid sweats even with the window open mean I’m not greatly rested but wide awake. Need to get up for water, still feeling plenty of indigestion. But have to eat to take more steroids...
I’m seriously nervous about this. Some people seem to get a nasty reaction to T so I’m very anxious. It’ll be done quicker so less cold cap but it’s the not knowing, like being back to the start. And I was allowed my husband in with me first time but not today. Hope I get one of the nurses I’ve had before, and the massage lady really had better show up on a bank holiday!!
Then is it the done thing to come and sit in the sun afterwards again?! 😂 my nails are all painted now, dark purple which I quite like but shame is has to be so dark for the next 10 weeks. Maybe should have done sooner but seems to be T that messes with them so I didn’t bother before.
Hope everyone else is feeling well and can enjoy their day off. Finally heard from bestie even if it was a very delayed message from yesterday saying Happy Easter. I hope he’s back on before 11 when I go in.
I know you’ll all be thinking of me which means a lot, update as soon as I can (and probably during as I’ll need something to occupy myself!) xx
Hey there lovelies,
Just a quick pop in , will catch up with everyone tomorrow. Been doing some serious gardening these last few days. Had a gardener in to do the digging and widened the beds. Other half was never going go do it so I hired someone. Got his rotovator to work and the beds were done in a couple of days. I’d never have managed that hand digging. It was great, , a real treat for the spirits to get back to planting.
Belated happy birthday Sarah, looks like you had a grand day and belated Bonne Paque ( Happy Easter).
Right, catch up tomorrow. Got to go and have a pee for the umpteenth time. I’ll wake up again mid morning to go. Driving bonkers.
Rest we’ll all of you.
Ps Dikat, just wanted to say thank you so much for popping in and encouraging us all. It means a lot. 😘
I lost my hair at 10 days after 1st FEC but didn’t cold cap so you definitely win Marie. It just shows how strongly that one cycle affected us though eh? 😥 x
It never ceases to surprise me how differently we are all affected by chemo and how it’s is so unpredictable. I have learnt to take each day as it comes and if it’s a goodish one I am grateful as I’m sure all my lovelies are. I managed a trip to the huge garden centre at Trentham this morning. Followed by crashing out in bed for a couple of hours exhausted when I got back, but it was so lovely to get out in the sunshine. Unfortunately, we hadn’t realised the whole area selling plants (which we’d gone for) was closed for Easter Sunday only everything else was on sale. Never mind, if the steroid slump hasn’t kicked off tomorrow, as I have just finished them, we may pop back for plants. There is a nice retail village in log cabins next door to the garden centre so ended up making up for the lack of plants by buying a cobalt blue linen shift dress instead.....ooooops! I’m hoping this is my last night of hardly any sleep.
Seaside, I love that summery photo of you on your bike. No one would guess what you are going through at the moment. You are such an inspiration as are all you walkers. I have done quite a bit more walking since this last chemo but still tiny in proportion to you little Duracell bunnies.
Trixielady, are you still in hospital honey? If so I hope they will get you home very soon. Thinking about you all the time.
Edinbird, what time is your treatment tomorrow. You will be in my thoughts too.
Marlyn, I really hope you start to pick up soon.
S & V, I can see these gorgeous forum girls have done their usual wonderful job of giving you both some wise words, comfort and support already. I think of you two constantly you know. We are all going to get through this together, one way or another. Love you all so much. I hope everyone at the very best has a decent night’s sleep at least and some more sunshine to wake up to tomorrow. Xxx
Hi Susie B
Well I am 8 weeks post 1 chemo so don't hold your breath for hair growth yet. Mine can only just bee seen now I keep on using a magnifying mirror but that's not really helpful I suppose.
I am sure your surgery will go smoothly, coping with that will be a breeze after chemo. Are you having a reconstruction at the same time?
Yes, unfortunately you do hold the top prize for hair loss and in double quick time☹. I've got a bit of respite from chemo and I am due to have surgery in the next few weeks. Having read regrowth can start as early as 3 weeks after chemo ends guess what I'm doing everyday now? Close inspection every morning even though it's only day 10 after chemo. How sad is that☹? On top of that I'm still leaving hair in the sink each morning after gentle combing and brushing, so how can I expect regrowth to start😨? Crazy or what😲🙃!!!
Hair /No Hair
Well do I hold the prize for head hair loss girls. Cold capped, l dose of FEC, no hair at all on my head after day 12. Hair hung around everywhere else though. Now I have a slight growth I can feel it. My poor husband keeps on saying yes it's growing I can see it trying to encourage me bless him, but I won't need any pony tail bobbles for a few years that's for sure. Oh yes and it's almost white too. Mind you I have no idea what my natural colour is anyway haven't seen it since I was about 17. 😂